I really liked that post. I feel like that sometimes, it's hard to think that sometimes things just don't have a meaning even when you try to find one. It's horrible to think that you have to do things that don't mean anything, don't achieve anything or don't push you further.
You can try and live like everything is one great romance but when you fall out of it, it hurts even more. I think that's why I make bad decisions with love, education etc, I build everything up to be so important and exciting without ever thinking that the consequences could be quite mundane and well...meaningless.
I know this will probably annoy you, but i've been through something like this. I had the most overwhelming, seemingly unquenchable thirst for a boy called Adam, All The Way Through High School. Nobody could compare. Nothing mattered if he wasn't there, it almost felt like it didn't happen, and then when he was there I felt like my existence was solely for him. There's a lot more rubbish about this, but in the end- the bitter end, one mighht say- we went our seperate ways and i realised there are a lot more Adams out there, I just hadn't come across them. But, perhaps your case is entirely different. Meh, I'm pissed. Sorry.
oh, vile shades of disgusted. that sounds marvellous i think youre ridiculous to think that, as your pretty journal was one of the most lovely to read. in conclusion. bring it back! if not, keep in touch, an add on msn would be nice thisismychaos@hotmail.com xx
yesyes. it is. absolutely. a thought: by any chance did you send my package-shaped-thing to 55 by mistake? this has happened before, because im crap and dont seem to be able to write 3's correctly. xx
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You can try and live like everything is one great romance but when you fall out of it, it hurts even more. I think that's why I make bad decisions with love, education etc, I build everything up to be so important and exciting without ever thinking that the consequences could be quite mundane and well...meaningless.
take care
kxx
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i think id rather everything was a great romace,
even when it hurts.
its just more exciting that way.
xx
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I had the most overwhelming, seemingly unquenchable thirst for a boy called Adam, All The Way Through High School. Nobody could compare. Nothing mattered if he wasn't there, it almost felt like it didn't happen, and then when he was there I felt like my existence was solely for him.
There's a lot more rubbish about this, but in the end- the bitter end, one mighht say- we went our seperate ways and i realised there are a lot more Adams out there, I just hadn't come across them.
But, perhaps your case is entirely different.
Meh, I'm pissed. Sorry.
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i dont suppose i even really like him
its just some idea i have &some need.
i always do fall in love with strangers.
xx
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You are writing incredibly these days.
You're there.
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thats about the most gorgeous thing you could have said. ever.
where have you gone?
xx
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I thought about getting a new JiveLournal, but alas, I reread my old one and went all sorts of vile shades of disgusted.
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oh, vile shades of disgusted. that sounds marvellous
i think youre ridiculous to think that, as your pretty journal was one of the most lovely to read.
in conclusion. bring it back!
if not, keep in touch, an add on msn would be nice
thisismychaos@hotmail.com
xx
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yesyes. it is. absolutely.
a thought: by any chance did you send my package-shaped-thing to 55 by mistake?
this has happened before, because im crap and dont seem to be able to write 3's correctly.
xx
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ca-roh-line.
hola.
coffee &cigarettes was indeed fun yesterday.
a bientot.
x
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