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people i love.
+nick
+jess
+meghan
+nikki
+mike z
+brian packard
+tim rouleau
+sarah grace
+everyone in my group
people i hate.
-anyone who pisses me off
-anyone who talks shit about me
-half my friggen youth group
-you, most likely.
-nate.
-snyder
things with me and nick have been going good. but i miss him. a lot. and i'm starting to miss nate. a lot. have you ever wanted to scream in someones face because they fucked up your life so bad and it might just fucking be permanant? i think nick can fix my life. he makes me so happy. i'm done with all this emo bullshit. what happened to the old kristen? the happy, loser, outgoing never ashamed of anything kristen? nate fucking changed that. and thinking too much made me realize things i never had time before to think about. i hate my parents i hate my youth group, the one thing that ever made sense to me. i hate most of my friends and i hate the fact that anyone i care about lives over an hour away [for the most part] and i fucking hate my cousin and i hate nate and i miss my old ways. whats happened to me? what the fucking hell has happened to me? i need michigan back and i need my nick. i need someone or something i can hold onto and be assured that i wont get my heart torn to peices again. but no one can assure that. fucking no good peice of shit i am. the only good thing in my life anymore is nick. and some friends. but you know, no one reads this. my life is a bunch of emo bullshit.