who wants to take a trip with me to chicago November 4th - 6th??

i am going for an open house at Columbia College.
and i want to go, but i dont wanna go by myself.

just got home from the fall out boy concert ( Read more... )

i think i look pretty.
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i dont understand why she hates me so much.
what the hell did i do to become such a horrible daughter.
i just dont understand.
i dont know what to do anymore.

the minute i get home, she yells at me for something, even if it wasnt my fault, or if i didnt do anything.
i get blamed for everything.

i hate this.
im sitting here crying.
and i hate it.

i dont know what to do anymore.
home isnt a happy place.
my mother hates me.
im a failure in her eyes.

i let everyone down.
including myself.

im sorry to everyone i have hurt.
and im sorry to everyone i will hurt in the future.
but you may not have to put up with me for much longer.

friday ( Read more... )

so, nothing too exciting going on ( Read more... )

so, i am going to plan another little trip to frankenmuth. this time its for erins birthday. we are either gonna go the weekend before or the weekend after her birthday. i dont think im gonna be able to get reservations for the weekend before. but i will try ( Read more... )

so, my weekend was pretty good ( Read more... )

god, all the bad memories are coming back.
the feeling of being alone.
having no one.

i wont go through this again.
not with school starting, and everything starting to get better.
i wont.
i think i need to sit with someone, and slowly try to tell them everything.
and i mean everything.
its gonna be hard.
but im gonna try.

im just afraid of their