honestly i have no idea what to think of anything anymore absolutely every single one of my situations ;im clueless;stuck;confused i wish i knew what i wanted i wish i had all that i had i wish i wish i wish i wish thats all i catch myself saying these days i wish someone would save me becuase saving myself just isnt working anymore

its funny sometimes
what 'friends' are
or what they turn out to be would be more accurate
because right now,
i couldnt be more clueless what to think of the people around me right now
what happened to the ones who showed me how strong i could be ?
theyve somehow turned into the ones trying to bring me down.
and i can honestly say with all seriousness that ( Read more... )

 'nothing you love lasts too long'

and ive become completely content with that
for now that is
i got a fortune cookie last night
'make the best of a bad situation - they make diamonds out of coal'
i see a brighter future lying ahead
hopefully things will be good for shi-yue
id hat emy halloween to be a waste this year

my 24 birthday hours this weekend were absolutely amazing
i couldnt have asked for anything more
couldnt have been any happier

and im still on top of the world
i want it to stay this way
its absolutely amazing
absolutely beautiful

and i dont even care that i didnt see him
with or without him this is how i feel

boston has my heart
i cant wait to be back

today
i spent hours modifying 
packing you, every piece, every evident example of our love
of my love for you
and your 'love' for me
into a single box
every note
every picture
every anything of everything

packed away
along with my heart
(so cliche i know)
never to be opened again 
unless you become a part of my life again
until then
i have disposed of you 
i wish ( Read more... )

so.

ive simply decided that on saturday aka my birthday, i AM going to boston, with or without another beings company. 
and if my night goes perfectly, ill be going to the free tbs/treos show wherever that may be, and spending the night being a lovely hobo with eric. how wonderful the city lights sound right now. oh, you have no idea.

this better go ( Read more... )

as of this very moment

i cant say that im happy; im content

hes everything i want
hes everything i need
sais all the right things
at exactly the right time
but he means nothing to me
and i dont know why.

and vice versa.

i hate guys boys

cav12284: its always important to remember that the bad times and the good times never last

its funny how hectic ( Read more... )