If you only knew how much this is affecting me right now.
You would stop.
but you don't know,
so there you go,
doing it, over and over.. and over and over.

Summer has honestly been so live.
Especially these past few weeks. ♥
I'm gonna write about it maybe tomorrow,
and after OJ's thank you note,
I think I'll do that too, individually ;)
<3
 

Today was such a good / loooong day! So slept at 4am last night because I was on BlogTV with Leslie/Monica. Then on the phone at the same time. So dropped dead after that. Parentals woke me up at 8, to get ready for the picnic. Got there around 10 lol. Twaaaas fun! Finally saw Jasmine, after the longest time! And her story about her dude ;) YUM. ( Read more... )

I hardly knew him. They say he took care of me while I was still in the Philippines. He was my late Lolo's brother. Rest in Peace ♥

Summer's been good to me. I won't lie. Though there's been some downs during this Summer, I don't want to let it get to me. Like come on. It's SUMMER, I'm suppose to have fun... I hate having my anger, anxiety and bad ( Read more... )

My girls are all I need right now.
Usually I'd trade the world just to hang out with my boys.
But even my best guy friends confuse the living mind out of me.
So, I'll stick with MY girls, MY bitches, MY sister(like).
other than that.. later! lol.

"sometimes love, comes around.. and it knocks you down.
just get back up when it knocks you down. "
 

It mended, it was fixed.
But what you did,
you took a fork,
and stabbed me,
right there..
in the middle.
... right in the heart.
 

I just don't know what I'm doing anymore.
What path I am going to, and where I am going.
I'm spirtitually dry. Emotionally erupted.
"All you can do is pray."
That IS what I do, that's ALL I do,
and yet, I feel like something is missing.
Your missing in my life.
Your love is missing.
Your presence is weak.
As I am waiting for your call, each day
it's seeming ( Read more... )

Why is it when I'm ready to open my heart to someone,
they'll end up breaking it, the minute they see it.

I thought I was ready to move on,
but I lied. I'm using alibi's to hide my anger,
my humility,
my true feelings.

I'm really tired.

Haven't had a good sleep in like.. forever,
I kind of want one.
Effed up sleeping pattern this week though.
Going out everyday with Fam, watching Movies/
playing PS3 until 6AM, then staying up..
going to Tim Hortons at 7AM, dropping dad to work as well.
Eat breakfast, then OUT!
That's how my days have been for the past week.
I'm not ( Read more... )

weeks been real good.. on the most part.
Family from Chicago here until Monday,
I'm really glad they're here.
For the most part, they're making my life. <3

week update:

sat july 18 - family from Chicago came at 2AM -_-" so slept it off.
sun july 19 - Petticoat Creek with the fam for my early 16th birthday.
Also got to spend it with my loves, Agnes, ( Read more... )

is it your place to try and fucking hurt me like this?
no.
so why the fuck you doing it?
i thought you we're supposed to be my best friend,
or were you just one of them, trying to screw me over.
you knew what i went through,
and you know what i'm going through right now,
i thought you were there for me,
i thought you were down,
lol, another bullshitter.

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