this really is a simple town.
i missed this. i'm happy i came home

you can't pretend i don't exist forever.
grow up

 http://www.landoverbaptist.org/news0704/homoprevention.html

i seriously cannot get over this

 two cups of jasmine tea
the soothing music of little joy
beautiful day outside, i jest
seeing my parents this weekend (and next!)
camping tonight in san onofre, a random excursion that involves skipping class (much needed)
seeing everyone i love everyday

all of this had made my life full, errr, at least my morning. 
---but not my belly.

 one letter words for describing my day:

overwhelming
sad
happy
drinks
sunburn
caged
released
cry
cigarette
guitar
food
conflicted
loved
hated
good
bad

 i love my friends, surriously.

no guys, like, SURRIOUSLY

 i hate this game of tug of war.
i feel cornered. alone. and totally at fault.

how could this be when all i wanted was to see the best in him? and now all he's getting is the worst in me?
i don't understand why this all happened. 
i still can't put my finger on it.

where did this all go wrong?
why is it still upsetting me?

i need a sign as to what to do ( Read more... )

 i'm really really sad right now.
devin has been in the hospital in ICU for 3 days and counting. he now has to eat with a feeding tube.... 
seeing cameron tonight made me so angry at whoever did this to him.
i just want to sleep and not think about it.

devin, i love you. :(

 I 
AM
SO 
HUNGRY

what should i eat?

 i feel like i'm being walked all over.