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as frou frou says, "i refuse to beleive that it's only me"
i can't think of a way to start this. i stared at the screen for 5 minutes thinking of how to begin this andi can't. so fuck it. people need to stop being so self-involved. this goes for me too. i'm always like "poor me" but seriously. i've come to the realization that no one cares. i fool myself into thinking that the people i choose to complain to actually care about the fact that my day completely sucked or that my friends are only mediocre. but after hearing about other people's problems and realizing that the only thing i'm thinking is "it could be way fucking worse", it dawned on me: nobody cares. i mean people say they do, people are always "there" for everyone. half of the reason is just because people like to hear about other people's problems so they can compare their own pathetic, insignificant, irrelevant problems to feel better about themselves and either say "fuck i'm glad i'm not that person" or "my problems are way more important than theirs, i'm glad i don't care." the other half is so they seem like a good person. part of you may care about this worry-stricken person, but the other part of why you act so caring is because of what everyone wants, recognition. everyone wants to be seen as a good person. i'm admitting it. even though i do, genuinely care about people's problems. but i mean, when you read about someone bitching about the fact that they don't have a decent boyfriend or that their day sucked, you know you just want to slap that person in the face. it's so unimportant compared to some serious problems that people face. i hate when people i don't even like tell me that they're here for me and that they want me to tell them my problems. first of all, why the hell do i care that you care? it's not like i like you or care what you think about me or want me to think about you. second, why would i want to share what's wrong with me if i hardly even talk to you? i have friends for a reason. people are just so stupid sometimes. this was so stupid and just 1 big ass ramble. i don't want to here your disagreements or criticism. props if you read this cuz it's filled with hypocrisy and i'd have xed out right when i started reading this peice of bullshit.
p.s. i'm aware that all of this was extremely bitchy of my to say/assume