i'm trying to beg my mom to take me out to chilis to get my cajin chicken pasta...

its not going so well.

i wish i wasnt so poor so i could pay for myself.

i wish i had a car so i could drive myself.

fuck.

todaywent to the mall with rich. but ended up sending/receiving various text messages from clay ( Read more... )

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY CHRISTOPHER MICHAEL ANTHONY

<3

okay. so here's what has happened in the past few days ( Read more... )

clays show was tonight. i really wanted to go, but i was hesitant too. amanda and emily asked me to join them in going to the mall and out to eat. but i ended up going with clay cause i didnt want to get him mad. i know how much the show ment to him ( Read more... )

okay, clay had his first show last night. everytime he sings he never fails to impress me. he has a beautiful voice. they did really good, k. i rode up with rich, amanda, and emily. emilys hair looks adorable. i went for a walk with amanda and emily before the show started and we saw some hot roadkill. yum. anyway, the guy cut clay off and only let ( Read more... )

i think clay and i are finished for good.

i dont find out until tomorrow. he cleared his info. i dont think he loves me any longer. i think he wished he could take back ever asking me to marry him..

i wish i could take back ever meeting him.

if we are done. i swear my lifes through, he's all i have.

god this hurts so much

i really CANNOT deal with this anymore. the constant fighting, crying, lack of communication is killing me. i dont think i can take it for much longer.

work was alright today. im going in early tomorrow so i can get off early and finish the shirts. clay was supposed to practice at 2...im not sure when he went though cause he doesnt tell me these things. but im mad. we were supposed to finish shirts today. i had my mom loan me 30 bucks to buy more shirts and paint. its almost 8. havent heard from ( Read more... )

first day back to work. woke up late. sat around work for 2 hours waiting for my mom to get out of a meeting cause i had no idea what to do. worked till 5. clay picked me up. went to ac moore. bought more stuff to make shirts. dropped his brian off. went to clays. made some shirts. saw 2 bunnies kissing on the way home, awe. now, here i am ( Read more... )