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[__odi_et_amo_]

so i've been sitting down at the computer for the past few days with intentions to update, but my mind just kept going blank. there's been so much on my mind that it seems impossible to express it in a coherent, succinct, and evenly slightly reader-friendly way

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maybe its just me-

[wonderingwords]

but whenever im in a different place my feelings are usually negative in the beginning(damn it i can never spell that word)

Re: maybe its just me-

[__odi_et_amo_]

i definitely agree... but i've been here for a month... and it's not like i'm actually moving here, it's just a semi-vacation. so i don't know...

all the women..who independent...

[sixwhitehorses]

if you recognize things are shitty..dont prey on the negative..play up on the positive.

you're not rotting in kansas

you are currently in a city people would kill to just get a glimpse of.

and its not an easy place by any means, especially when you're alone, hey, you don't see me there, but just think of how accomplished you'll feel after being there.

and i mean not just going through the motions, but get out and see all the things the city has to offer, who knows when you'll have so much time there again. the museums,the shops, central park, the restaurants, pick up a travel guide. yeah , we all know time sq but do you know all the nooks and crannies of the village?

if you have decided ny is the city for you, thats fine, it isnt for everyone, or maybe its not for you right now, paris isn't the city for me, and lots of places aren't...but if i feel as though you are huddled over a computer looking at pictures of the desert instead of going out and owning the place in your big sunglasses...

im going to slap you.

Re: all the women..who independent...

[__odi_et_amo_]

that's exactly it - i have been going out, i have been exploring (minus a few days this week when it wsa raining and i was sick and coughing up phlegm like it was my job, but i think that's a real excuse), and no i don't know all the details of every neighborhood and burrough, but i have done and seen some pretty cool shit. (honestly, i don't know how i'm going to walk today after the night of salsa we had last night, my calves are screaming...)

and i really do like the city itself, i think it's amazing. but it's not for me right now, where i am in my life; and although i thought that it would, a city itself is not enough to make me happy. i don't do 'transition' very well, and that's exactly what this entire summer is. i can't appreciate it the way that i should and i think that's one of the biggest things bothering me.

so don't slap me. luuuuv me, charlize.