Hello All
Hello to you all. It's been quite a while since I've even been to livejournal.
I've had a lot on my mind as of late and I thought maybe some expression through this would allow me to process things easier. I'm not asking you to read it. If anything, I'm warning you not to.
I find myself in a constant state of worry.
I worry about my family. I worry that my mom will be abandoned by my step father on a whim. I worry that my father will contract cancer from smoking and his bad habits. I worry that my brother will be sent on a mission from the NAVY and will never return. I am worried deeply for my family.
I worry about my progress in school. Are these classes going to benefit me or am I just wasting time? My study habits are fine but are they real quality?
--but. before this list continues I have to sit back and really look at my life objectively. I have done everything I can to protect those around me. My mom will be fine, my dad will be fine and my brother will be fine. School is school and all I can do is follow a path to which right now seems to be the proper course (no pun intended). I sit up late nights with people who truely get it. Coming to college I have met some really incrediable people. A certain friend in particular who has been through many of the things I've been through. It's such a relief to escape home and still find complete comfort. I miss my friends and family so much I can hardly stand it at times but being here is the best thing I could have possibly done. Knowing this eases my worries and allows me to focus greatly on what matters...me.
Anyways, this was all a random mixture of typing while just thinking. 'Till I get the urge again...see you guys on the flip side.
before our basketball game. we kicked serious ass. i landed six points in ten minutes. BIOTCH.
"HOLLA"
new years eve!!!
true love.
i don't even know the guy i'm posing with.
I've had a lot on my mind as of late and I thought maybe some expression through this would allow me to process things easier. I'm not asking you to read it. If anything, I'm warning you not to.
I find myself in a constant state of worry.
I worry about my family. I worry that my mom will be abandoned by my step father on a whim. I worry that my father will contract cancer from smoking and his bad habits. I worry that my brother will be sent on a mission from the NAVY and will never return. I am worried deeply for my family.
I worry about my progress in school. Are these classes going to benefit me or am I just wasting time? My study habits are fine but are they real quality?
--but. before this list continues I have to sit back and really look at my life objectively. I have done everything I can to protect those around me. My mom will be fine, my dad will be fine and my brother will be fine. School is school and all I can do is follow a path to which right now seems to be the proper course (no pun intended). I sit up late nights with people who truely get it. Coming to college I have met some really incrediable people. A certain friend in particular who has been through many of the things I've been through. It's such a relief to escape home and still find complete comfort. I miss my friends and family so much I can hardly stand it at times but being here is the best thing I could have possibly done. Knowing this eases my worries and allows me to focus greatly on what matters...me.
Anyways, this was all a random mixture of typing while just thinking. 'Till I get the urge again...see you guys on the flip side.
before our basketball game. we kicked serious ass. i landed six points in ten minutes. BIOTCH.
"HOLLA"
new years eve!!!
true love.
i don't even know the guy i'm posing with.