i just found out that daniels been taking vikadin.

he lies.

so im okay. like i told my mom about how i feel. last night i cryed so much. and when i tryed to take deep breaths i started to cry more. my mom asked what the problem was. and i told her. i told her everything. that my whole entire life my parents held me together. they were my support. and when they fell apart it seems like i fell apart. like ( Read more... )

i underestimate myself. i have realized this. this sucks. bruses on my ego. daniel makes me feel alive. and i am greatfull i have him. you have no idea. i miss my friends. ands seans leaving. im sad. for 3 whole years! fuckkk.

ive also come to realize that my parents divorce bothers me more then i let it show. actually i act like i dont care. ( Read more... )

she lived in the heart of america

im happy with life right now.

some aspects of it ared shaky though. considering the fact that my parents divorce is final in two days. i care so much. but i act like i dont.

why do i do this to myself?

you know that soung by taking back sunday:Great Romances Of The 20th Century ( Read more... )

i love depeche mode.

dirty sticky floor.

is a really good song.
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so i woke up late today.

well actually i woke up at 6:07 but i was already FUCKED because i had to leave at 6:15 for the bus. so i just went back to sleep. then i woke up again at 7. ate an enlish muffin. and took a shower. got dressed. then me and my mom left at 8:09 to take me to school. so then we go to the gas station for gas. and i got a ( Read more... )

i want kid food.

you know the kind you ate in like 3rd grade.
when the cafeteria ladys were your friends.

i want pork N beans with some cut up hot dig weeners in there.
mabey even some raveolis.

mmm.

mabey patty will have some.

sean hasnt got the hint. smoking kills. haha goober.

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im scared to watch a scary movie by myself. is that pathetic or what? i think so. ughh. so patricia is coming over in like 2 hours and were gonna watch it together i think. at least shes coming over im a loser. haha. yeah i stayed home today. i couldnt wake up. i think that formal got my sleeping pattern all off. i need to start staying home more ( Read more... )