I'm high and alone. I'm deathly afraid someone is annoyed with me right now. I can feel it. I'm afraid. I'm trying to think of someone who could understand my dopey paranoia right now. I thought of one. (and he's probably the annoyed one!)

I sincerely regret bringing my car up here as it's just a pain in the ass trying to find decent parking spots. Yes, that's three parking tickets I've received so far..a total of $55.. about half a day of work ( Read more... )

ok so I wish:

my compulsive personality would just eat itself
my boobs would fit into this god damned bra
half my friends didn't have whooping cough
going home wasn't such a disappointment
i didn't feel so fat all the time
cigarettes didn't taste so good
my other half was here
zeus liked me

i could make myself happy

happy happy happy

at the same time I'm scared because maybe he'll see all the things I hate about myself and agree.

I'm excited and paranoid at the same time.

sing your song, dance your dance

there's really nothing to say besides misfortune bites
and I love the Mars Volta..

Life's okay. I went home for the first time last weekend and it was... disappointing. No one seemed excited to see me. Even my parents were bored with me after an hour. I felt awkward and out of place. And I guess I call this place home now. I feel comfortable here. Maybe it's the fact that I'm on my own. There will always be things I miss in ( Read more... )

I am glad this weekend is ending. It was a good time, but I need a break from the same old routine and the physical pain this weekend has brought. From dog bites to near broken toes, I have endured it all ( Read more... )

I have a newfound love for life this morning. The "shit" has been resolved and I am happy.
And it's totallly gaudy sweater season..

Seriously fighting the urge to cry right now..but it's okay. I thought it'd be fun to have a crush on someone again. But, it's harder than it seems..

Oh well, I still have Cedric and Omar

So after 10 days without a cigarette, and due to a minor psychotic episode, I am once again a smoker. Life goes on.

But, I miss these two.

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