So here's my dilemma ( Read more... )

Today is December 29, 2005. 18 years ago I was born. I suppose that makes it my birthday. yay.

Most wonderful time of the year? Yeah, no. Not at all ( Read more... )

This is becoming unbearable. I'm not sure how much more I can take before I completely break down.

I pretty much had an amazing weekend which consisted of lots of drinking, a bus with strobe lights, making pancakes with my boyfriend, playing -and losing- Spit, sweatpants, the Arbor Inn, Nicky's parties, "You love it", cell phone ring tones, "No touching", feeding 140 old people, and sleeping very little.

I have never felt so powerless in my life. I'm not a big believer in God, I just really never was influenced by anything religious, but right now, for the first time in my life, I truly hope that there is something or someone that is above everything that can make everything turn out okay. I'm looking around me at this world and it breaks my heart ( Read more... )

So I haven't signed into livejoural for months. It's all different. hmm ( Read more... )

I don't think that I lead an awful life, but that my life does indeed have awful aspects to it ( Read more... )

I've been trying very hard not to get jealous. I've been trying to not be selfish. I've been trying, I have, but to read you saying things like "yea but im more of a relationship guy, and between us there would be soo much lust, that we would have no time to get out of the bedroom" to other girls just doesn't make me feel good about myself at all. ( Read more... )

I'm so angry. A week into a relationship and I'm being cheated on. And stupid me, I'm the type that gives people another chance, because hell I've been given way too many chances not to give some back in return. I can't believe any of this. This has been the worst weekend. I just want to fucking curl up and die. This is so stupid. I really need to ( Read more... )