California was a much needed great time away from home ( Read more... )

summer has been 'entertaining' to say the least. mostly listening to the same CD everyday and chainsmoking and having $0 all the time and random adventures and some epiphanies and alot of alcohol.

I leave for california with meg and morg on saturday! I'm so fucking excited. I can't even wait. it is going to be the best week ever.

hahahahahha nevermind!

you were in my dream last night.
I just lied next to you and barely said a word but you understood everything and made me feel so much better.
too bad you messed it all up; you would have helped.

got an interview at Michael's, keeping my fingers crossed.
got grounded for comin in at 3 in the morning after adventuring through 10 trains to hoboken and seeing as tall as lions when they were sold out. worth it, pretty much.
got to make sure I stop drunk text messaging. yep!

Summer's suppost to be stress free what the fuck. I'm worried.

I am not going to get irrationally wasted anymore. I think too much when I'm like that and the I can't stop and then I make a fool out of myself, most of the time. Only drunk enough to 'lean back.'

And I have the most amazing friends I could ask for. Really, I do.

i'm officially 16.
this weekend was humiliating/ hilarious/ perfect.

Things are about to seriously change. I don't know what to think about everything. I know the number 3 is officially completely unlucky. Megan getting her license is the greatest thing to happen. Ever.

just don't know what to say
oh god, make it all go away
I can't love, I can't hate these days
damn I just want to be entertained
been high and I've been low
the devils here to take my soul
I can't take this anymore