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[__sidekick]

i got exactly what i needed from chuck. it was definitely not what i wanted to hear, but he's right and i know it. i don't have a snowball's chance in hell. he even managed to throw in a rancid reference so i'd get it, but the difference between me and brody dalle (besides the fact that she sounds like a man and is crustier than...crust) is that

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[newkiss]

it's totally valid (and completely crappy) to feel that a break-up makes all the stuff that was good in your time with someone null and void.

but.

once a break up has occurred, something changes. you are the one who gets to decide what the relationship meant, what was real and important about it, how it will fit into the person you are constantly becoming. he doesn't get to - and nothing about how he acts now has the power to take that agency away from you. does that make sense?

so many hugs to you. ♥

[__sidekick]

you're right, and i've spent a lot of time trying to appreciate everything that was good about it and think about that stuff instead of the recent crap, but the problem is that his attitude now makes me doubt the sincerity of everything he said and did. it's probably not true, but i can't help but think it.
plus, i'm not in the mood to give him the benefit of the doubt this time:)

eventually i'll be able to figure out what to take from it. i'm just not put together enough to do that yet.