i dont really know why i decided to write right now

[__so_we_beat_on]

its 6:42. i just wrote the longest paper ive ever written. it wasnt that bad. theres no point in sleeping, so i took a shower. the dining hall opens in 18 minutes. im pretty excited because im watching the sunrise from my window and its beautiful, but i know when i go upstairs and i can see the whole campus in the morning sun it will be worth being

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[california___]

"but its made me realize how much drinking makes people your friends. or maybe i have the wrong friends. i guess i really am lonely. ive met some pretty cool people here but no one who really cares about forming a true friendship."

welcome to my life in boone.
when i say i have no good friends here,
i mean it.

[__so_we_beat_on]

ive heard you say what i said so many times before and i never got it. i guess i knew the people in my life at home were really my friends and i didnt need to be drunk for them to want to hang out. its the people i met here that made me see what youve been saying for so long.

booo alcohol

[rekcals]

ive met tons of people. but it seems like they are pointless. ive never been more lonely nor surrounded by more people. its uncomfortable. its not supposed to be like this. i thought college is where you were supposed to find your friends for life, but i felt like i had already found mine when i came. now, i wonder if any "friend" will ever live up to my expectations of understanding and likeness. maybe i am too different for the masses? maybe we both are. or maybe everyone is just too afraid to be like us. hopefully one day there will be answers or at least solutions. hopefully.

p.s. ive missed your livejournal.

[__so_we_beat_on]

exactly. exactly. exactly.
thats what i was trying to say.

[__so_we_beat_on]

ps ive missed YOU

[surreal_reality]

I'm glad all three of us are going through the same thing.
and another thing, I want fabfour to be NORMAL, not like catching up. but it will be like catching up since we all have different lives with different people in them. well, I have the same people in mine for the most part but in a different way. ugh.

when is a good night?!

[__so_we_beat_on]

should it be over the break?
or we could make a group visit to one school. buttt the whole not having a car thing makes it hard...

[__sellout]

KELSEY,
i miss you a lot a lot a lot. and i feel really bad, sad, guilty, etc. for not calling you back whenever you're in town. i've had a lot of skyler bad things happening, and i'm not so good at dealing with them. i'm going to app in january, and i want to see you before then, or i want you to come play with me when i'm there. i miss listening to the oc soundtrack and getting crazy crunk and talking shit and riding golf carts and running through fields and laying the sun and being amazing :].

wooo, livejournal.

i love you.