Leading you down into my core...
Title: Windows Not Of Glass
Author:
slasher48/
bad_bad_books
Rating: NC-17
Pairing: The lovely Vam of course ;)..or am I in the wrong community? Hehe.
Disclaimer: I do reiterate, I do not own or control in any way, and if this happened, I was not privy to the details so I shall say it did not, based on my own limited knowledge of the persons involved ;)
Dedicated to my beta
shirlz08 just for the fucking hell of it and because despite her wariness of the Vam love, she reads and reviews all of my stories :)
"I love you."
Widened green eyes, a perfect lush mouth open with shock.
A stiff posture and anxious expression that told Bam all he needed to know about how Ville felt. He turned away, biting back the tears and slowly walked to the door of Ville's apartment, heartbroken that he'd been so wrong, so wrong to think that Ville could feel the same. All those innocent touches, those kisses to the neck, the cheek, the hair, they really were innocent.
It hurt, he couldn't deny it. The thought that not only had he just found out Ville didn't feel anything for him like he felt for the singer, but he'd alienated his best friend and ruined the most incredible relationship he'd ever had, it hurt like a bitch.
But he wasn't Ville, couldn't make the choice for the beautiful Finn, could only accept it and move on, or try to.
Fuck did it hurt though. He reached the door and turned the knob, starting to sniff as the tears refused to stay back any longer and flooded his face quickly and almost silently, only his hitches of breath showing what Ville's rejection had driven him to.
***
Glossy emeralds widened for a different reason as Ville realized that with his silence and surprise he'd given Bam the entirely wrong impression, the impression that he didn't feel what the skater felt.
The tiny sharp intakes of breath he could hear from Bam tugged at his heart and all he wanted to do was run to his love and take him in his arms, stop those tears such incredible blue eyes should never have to shed.
Too bad his feet wouldn't move, no matter how much he begged them to.
But he had to stop Bam before he left, somehow knowing that when Bam crossed that threshold and walked out of his apartment and his life, it would be forever. Tears of his own started to pool in his eyes as he thought about living without Bam and just the mere idea unstuck his feet.
Hurried footsteps across a carpeted floor littered with beerstains and burn marks from dropped cigarettes and a gasp as a certain skater turned to wonder what made the noise.
Ville took his Bammie into his arms and wrapped them around his shaking, shivering, miserable body, rocking him gently and whispering soothingly into his ear. "No, no more tears, love, I'm here, you never have to cry again."
***
Bam swallowed back the salty misery, wanting to stop crying but somehow unable to, not having heard the words he wanted most from his beloved.
He had the awful inkling that maybe this was just a friend caring for another friend and started to struggle out of Ville's grip, backing away again. "I don't want your pity, Vil, I want your love, and if you can't give it to me, I can't stay, and I certainly can't stop crying."
Soft brown curls flopped as Ville's head shook frantically. "No, darling, you have it, you have my love, my heart, everything, I swear it."
Blue eyes staring at the dream of his heart, hardly daring to believe the words spoken. Too good to be true, surely.
"B-but you..you"
"I was shocked, Bammie, and I'm sorry you took that for horror or some similar terrible emotion, but I assure you I do feel the same."
***
Ville reached out and tugged Bam back into his arms, just wanting to hold him, perhaps more for his own comfort than Bam's this time. His head rested in tear soaked dark curls and he breathed in the smell of his Bammie with reverence, thanking whatever gods existed for this small miracle that'd given him the greatest gift, requited love.
But he was forced back to reality when Bam's head snapped back at his words. Blue eyes watched him warily, unsure whether to accept his words as truth.
He nodded with a tender smile, stroking his long fingers through the skater's hair. "I love you, sweetheart."
Bam smiled so happily it made Ville tear up again and he threaded his fingers deep in Bam's curls, tilting his head for a kiss as he whispered urgently, "I love you so much, Bammie."
***
Bam for his part just relaxed his neck and waited for Ville's kiss, lips parting to welcome him as the Finn wrapped arms around shoulders and brought him closer, lips touching barely at all for a second, then pressing harder, tongues sweeping out to meet and twine around each other. The kiss was very wet, stained with both of their tears of joy, but it brought naught but more satisfaction.
"Bam, I want you," Ville said quietly when they'd finally ended it, caressing Bam's strong back with his smooth, graceful hands through his Element tee. He felt a pressure against his thigh and smiled softly, recognizing the reciprocation of that want.
"I'm nervous, Ville," he whispered, biting his lip as he looked down as though embarrassed to admit such a thing. "I've..never done anything with another guy before."
Ville's hand had been sliding down to Bam's jeans but at that, it stopped. Though it was certainly an amazing thrill and honor to be Bam's first, it did slow things down a bit. Ville wanted to make sure Bam enjoyed himself as much as possible for his first time.
***
Blue eyes getting lighter with joy as Bam grabbed Ville's wandering hand and entwined their fingers.
"Make love to me?" The same eyes flickering with uncertainty, shifty feet making scraping sounds on the carpet.
A surprised gasp that caused two pairs of eyes to meet in one perfect moment.
***
"Of course." Ville kissed his Bammie again, moving their hands up to press his lips to the joined fingers once before letting go to remove Bam's clothing, his lips meeting every single inch of skin revealed intimately.
He lost his shirt next, but before ridding himself of the rest, he slipped his arms under Bam's back and the backs of his knees, carrying him gently to lay him on his bed, crawling over him with something so tender in his eyes, it made Bam want to cry again.
His clothes were discarded finally and after grabbing the things needed to make his love feel good, he started to prepare him, stretching him smoothly, taking his gasps into his mouth, smiling against perfect swollen lips.
***
"Mmmm, now," Bam mumbled into his mouth, moving his body harder against the now three fingers inside him, trying to slide them deeper.
"But, Bammie..." Green eyes wide with concern, even as they glittered with lust. He could never willingly hurt his Bammie.
"No, Ville, now." Again, blue and green met, one stubborn, the other reluctant.
***
"Alright, love, now." Soft words and even softer strokes on himself, the condom around him dulling the sensation just enough to keep him from losing it at the sight of Bam's eyes closed in pleasurable anticipation, those pouty lips slipping between two sets of pearly teeth.
When fully prepared, he slid inside his lover, not stopping 'til fully seated, clenching his hands around tiny hips and breathing deeply for control. He'd never forgive himself if he started to thrust hard and Bam wasn't ready for it.
***
Soon enough, Bam arched his hips gracefully, their hips clashing for a second, as his mouth screamed what his body's already showing, " Don't go easy on me, Vil, please."
Ville bit his lip as he started to move faster, harder, letting himself lose all control and just praying Bam would love it as much as he implied. The bed started to rock beneath them, but he didn't notice, green eyes only fixed on his love writhing and thrashing below him, eyes wide open and glazed with pleasure. mouth still swollen and letting out short, gasping breaths.
***
Ville changed his angle for one second to see if he was doing it right, and was rewarded with a loud moan of his name as he finally hit what he was aiming for, Bam's sweet spot.
"Harder!," his love panted, starting to help himself get fucked with large arcs of his hips, trying to slam them together, Ville stopping just a little to let him set the pace more even as his hips of their own accord started to crash into Bam's, helped along by a string of more pleas from his sweetheart.
"I'm..almost...there..", Bam gasped, moving his body as fast and as sharply as he could, quickly racing to what his tingling form craved for. Ville felt his every muscle start to go taut and leant to press his lips savagely, messily against Bam's as his thrusts started to lose their perfect rhythm, his body wanting release as much as Bam's.
***
"AH, Ville!" The cry echoed around the room, reverberating back to Ville's ears and yanking his own climax from him almost harshly, his groin crushed against Bam's tightening buttocks, his mouth dropping open in a loud scream of Bam's name and a string of obscenities.
When the high had left, all Ville could see was a pair of bright, beautiful blue eyes with a sated daze to them that made him smile, firmly fixed on his own eyes.
***
The next breath Ville took was of Bam's scent as his tired body collapsed over Bam's, their chests tight together and his face wedged against the sweaty, silky neck.
"Love you," he mumbled against the flesh, his reward a soft giggle, almost a sign the only way Bam could express his joy was verbally.
"I love you, too, Ville."
***
Blue eyes and green eyes staring into each other until slowly, lids lowered, hiding the enchanting orbs from the world for the night.
Twin smiles that showed without a doubt, the desires of both men's hearts had been reached.
And so they slept.
♥ ♥ ♥
Yes, I know it's not Tearing Apart or Pain or The List (I have a compulsive un-desire to finish previous stories that I'm working on I swear!), but it's something, right?
Tell me what you thought and I may just get to work on the others, hehe. (Yes I know I'm asking for bribery, but meh, I love comments that much)
Btw...a ticket to golden's and my express train to hell with hot hockeyplayers and Vam and cookies and ice cream galore to the ones who can figure out the title :)
Author:
slasher48/
bad_bad_books
Rating: NC-17
Pairing: The lovely Vam of course ;)..or am I in the wrong community? Hehe.
Disclaimer: I do reiterate, I do not own or control in any way, and if this happened, I was not privy to the details so I shall say it did not, based on my own limited knowledge of the persons involved ;)
Dedicated to my beta
shirlz08 just for the fucking hell of it and because despite her wariness of the Vam love, she reads and reviews all of my stories :)
"I love you."
Widened green eyes, a perfect lush mouth open with shock.
A stiff posture and anxious expression that told Bam all he needed to know about how Ville felt. He turned away, biting back the tears and slowly walked to the door of Ville's apartment, heartbroken that he'd been so wrong, so wrong to think that Ville could feel the same. All those innocent touches, those kisses to the neck, the cheek, the hair, they really were innocent.
It hurt, he couldn't deny it. The thought that not only had he just found out Ville didn't feel anything for him like he felt for the singer, but he'd alienated his best friend and ruined the most incredible relationship he'd ever had, it hurt like a bitch.
But he wasn't Ville, couldn't make the choice for the beautiful Finn, could only accept it and move on, or try to.
Fuck did it hurt though. He reached the door and turned the knob, starting to sniff as the tears refused to stay back any longer and flooded his face quickly and almost silently, only his hitches of breath showing what Ville's rejection had driven him to.
***
Glossy emeralds widened for a different reason as Ville realized that with his silence and surprise he'd given Bam the entirely wrong impression, the impression that he didn't feel what the skater felt.
The tiny sharp intakes of breath he could hear from Bam tugged at his heart and all he wanted to do was run to his love and take him in his arms, stop those tears such incredible blue eyes should never have to shed.
Too bad his feet wouldn't move, no matter how much he begged them to.
But he had to stop Bam before he left, somehow knowing that when Bam crossed that threshold and walked out of his apartment and his life, it would be forever. Tears of his own started to pool in his eyes as he thought about living without Bam and just the mere idea unstuck his feet.
Hurried footsteps across a carpeted floor littered with beerstains and burn marks from dropped cigarettes and a gasp as a certain skater turned to wonder what made the noise.
Ville took his Bammie into his arms and wrapped them around his shaking, shivering, miserable body, rocking him gently and whispering soothingly into his ear. "No, no more tears, love, I'm here, you never have to cry again."
***
Bam swallowed back the salty misery, wanting to stop crying but somehow unable to, not having heard the words he wanted most from his beloved.
He had the awful inkling that maybe this was just a friend caring for another friend and started to struggle out of Ville's grip, backing away again. "I don't want your pity, Vil, I want your love, and if you can't give it to me, I can't stay, and I certainly can't stop crying."
Soft brown curls flopped as Ville's head shook frantically. "No, darling, you have it, you have my love, my heart, everything, I swear it."
Blue eyes staring at the dream of his heart, hardly daring to believe the words spoken. Too good to be true, surely.
"B-but you..you"
"I was shocked, Bammie, and I'm sorry you took that for horror or some similar terrible emotion, but I assure you I do feel the same."
***
Ville reached out and tugged Bam back into his arms, just wanting to hold him, perhaps more for his own comfort than Bam's this time. His head rested in tear soaked dark curls and he breathed in the smell of his Bammie with reverence, thanking whatever gods existed for this small miracle that'd given him the greatest gift, requited love.
But he was forced back to reality when Bam's head snapped back at his words. Blue eyes watched him warily, unsure whether to accept his words as truth.
He nodded with a tender smile, stroking his long fingers through the skater's hair. "I love you, sweetheart."
Bam smiled so happily it made Ville tear up again and he threaded his fingers deep in Bam's curls, tilting his head for a kiss as he whispered urgently, "I love you so much, Bammie."
***
Bam for his part just relaxed his neck and waited for Ville's kiss, lips parting to welcome him as the Finn wrapped arms around shoulders and brought him closer, lips touching barely at all for a second, then pressing harder, tongues sweeping out to meet and twine around each other. The kiss was very wet, stained with both of their tears of joy, but it brought naught but more satisfaction.
"Bam, I want you," Ville said quietly when they'd finally ended it, caressing Bam's strong back with his smooth, graceful hands through his Element tee. He felt a pressure against his thigh and smiled softly, recognizing the reciprocation of that want.
"I'm nervous, Ville," he whispered, biting his lip as he looked down as though embarrassed to admit such a thing. "I've..never done anything with another guy before."
Ville's hand had been sliding down to Bam's jeans but at that, it stopped. Though it was certainly an amazing thrill and honor to be Bam's first, it did slow things down a bit. Ville wanted to make sure Bam enjoyed himself as much as possible for his first time.
***
Blue eyes getting lighter with joy as Bam grabbed Ville's wandering hand and entwined their fingers.
"Make love to me?" The same eyes flickering with uncertainty, shifty feet making scraping sounds on the carpet.
A surprised gasp that caused two pairs of eyes to meet in one perfect moment.
***
"Of course." Ville kissed his Bammie again, moving their hands up to press his lips to the joined fingers once before letting go to remove Bam's clothing, his lips meeting every single inch of skin revealed intimately.
He lost his shirt next, but before ridding himself of the rest, he slipped his arms under Bam's back and the backs of his knees, carrying him gently to lay him on his bed, crawling over him with something so tender in his eyes, it made Bam want to cry again.
His clothes were discarded finally and after grabbing the things needed to make his love feel good, he started to prepare him, stretching him smoothly, taking his gasps into his mouth, smiling against perfect swollen lips.
***
"Mmmm, now," Bam mumbled into his mouth, moving his body harder against the now three fingers inside him, trying to slide them deeper.
"But, Bammie..." Green eyes wide with concern, even as they glittered with lust. He could never willingly hurt his Bammie.
"No, Ville, now." Again, blue and green met, one stubborn, the other reluctant.
***
"Alright, love, now." Soft words and even softer strokes on himself, the condom around him dulling the sensation just enough to keep him from losing it at the sight of Bam's eyes closed in pleasurable anticipation, those pouty lips slipping between two sets of pearly teeth.
When fully prepared, he slid inside his lover, not stopping 'til fully seated, clenching his hands around tiny hips and breathing deeply for control. He'd never forgive himself if he started to thrust hard and Bam wasn't ready for it.
***
Soon enough, Bam arched his hips gracefully, their hips clashing for a second, as his mouth screamed what his body's already showing, " Don't go easy on me, Vil, please."
Ville bit his lip as he started to move faster, harder, letting himself lose all control and just praying Bam would love it as much as he implied. The bed started to rock beneath them, but he didn't notice, green eyes only fixed on his love writhing and thrashing below him, eyes wide open and glazed with pleasure. mouth still swollen and letting out short, gasping breaths.
***
Ville changed his angle for one second to see if he was doing it right, and was rewarded with a loud moan of his name as he finally hit what he was aiming for, Bam's sweet spot.
"Harder!," his love panted, starting to help himself get fucked with large arcs of his hips, trying to slam them together, Ville stopping just a little to let him set the pace more even as his hips of their own accord started to crash into Bam's, helped along by a string of more pleas from his sweetheart.
"I'm..almost...there..", Bam gasped, moving his body as fast and as sharply as he could, quickly racing to what his tingling form craved for. Ville felt his every muscle start to go taut and leant to press his lips savagely, messily against Bam's as his thrusts started to lose their perfect rhythm, his body wanting release as much as Bam's.
***
"AH, Ville!" The cry echoed around the room, reverberating back to Ville's ears and yanking his own climax from him almost harshly, his groin crushed against Bam's tightening buttocks, his mouth dropping open in a loud scream of Bam's name and a string of obscenities.
When the high had left, all Ville could see was a pair of bright, beautiful blue eyes with a sated daze to them that made him smile, firmly fixed on his own eyes.
***
The next breath Ville took was of Bam's scent as his tired body collapsed over Bam's, their chests tight together and his face wedged against the sweaty, silky neck.
"Love you," he mumbled against the flesh, his reward a soft giggle, almost a sign the only way Bam could express his joy was verbally.
"I love you, too, Ville."
***
Blue eyes and green eyes staring into each other until slowly, lids lowered, hiding the enchanting orbs from the world for the night.
Twin smiles that showed without a doubt, the desires of both men's hearts had been reached.
And so they slept.
♥ ♥ ♥
Yes, I know it's not Tearing Apart or Pain or The List (I have a compulsive un-desire to finish previous stories that I'm working on I swear!), but it's something, right?
Tell me what you thought and I may just get to work on the others, hehe. (Yes I know I'm asking for bribery, but meh, I love comments that much)
Btw...a ticket to golden's and my express train to hell with hot hockeyplayers and Vam and cookies and ice cream galore to the ones who can figure out the title :)