and so it goes...

[_abrokensmile]

my life has become a living, breathing soap opera. nothing that wasn't of my own doing, i know, but i find it somewhat amusing that my life - that was so unbelievably ordinary and plain - is now full of drama and sex

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[anonymous]

you have to ask yourself what you want. a marriage, a sextoy, what? it sounds like you had someone special to share your life with, and then you just abandoned them, and now you're feeling unwated.... it just doesn't make much sense to an outsider. are there any possibilities that you could go back with dan? if the air is cleared and whatever problems were there are gone?

-jackie

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[_soclose]

just keep in mind that you ARE an outsider and you don't know everything that goes on in her life just because you read her journal.

sorry jessa, i just hate when people make such assumptuous comments in MY journal... and i see you going through what you're going through and trying so hard to make yourself happy and i can't stand to think that someone could simplify it like that. if life were that black and white, things like this would never happen.

but you know how i feel about it... and i don't think you should be angry with yourself at all, unless you're doing something for reasons that you don't really believe in. and, well.. maybe im a little biased, but i think youre an incredibly strong person who doesn't need "fixing" at all. you'll figure things out... just dont be afraid to say "no"... to anything, to anyone trying to wear you down.

i love you, darlin'. i don't know what id do without you. *hugehugs*

[anonymous]

umm, all i was saying is that it sounds like she's become a callgirl without the money. she left someone she was practically married to, and now she's at someone's beck and call for sex with no emotional attachment...? this is behavior you backup?

[infectedmodel]

Well maybe that "practically married to" guy wasn't right for her. And it wasn't all perfect at all. I don't back up the behaviour, but it's not MY life (nor yours). I just think she's needy right now. Everyone makes mistakes and once they realize it, they learn from it. She doesn't need shitty comments like these (especially when you remain anonymous) to make her feel even worse.

[anonymous]

i've been commenting on gracewithin and her livejournals forever, but i this topic is a sore spot for me, and i wanted to voice my opinion! from what i've read in the past, jess was so HAPPY with dan! if there was a problem, it could've been helped! now she's turned into this girl who just goes around having sex without any emotional attachment, and poor dan is probably just sitting there waiting for her to come to her senses! we're they living together for like four years or something?? she threw that all away for some sex? i can't believe you so-called 'friends' just sit back and let her do this to herself! she has no self-respect and no self-esteem! -jackie

[infectedmodel]

i can't believe you so-called 'friends' just sit back and let her do this to herself!That's a crock of shit. We just sit back and let her do this? How the hell are WE suppose to STOP it? We can't. We can tell her it's bad, we can tell her we don't support it, but we can't MAKE HER STOP. Give me a break. People have to live their OWN lives and make their OWN mistakes. Jessica knows damn well I don't agree with what she has done, but I'm certainly not going to make her feel like less of a human being for it. And if she was SO HAPPY with Dan, she wouldn't have cheated in the first place. Perhaps you need to take a breather and realize that maybe Jessica didn't discuss her relationship with Dan as openly as you may think. It wasn't a healthy relationship. And Dan has nothing to do with this nor her decisions anymore. He can sit back and do whatever her wants. But Jessica has her own life to live right now. Her own choices to make - whether they are good or bad. Yes, her self-esteem isn't so great. Self-respect...I don't

[someangel]

in words of like, Mr. Rodgers. if you have nothing nice to say, dont say it at all.
unless you are that persons mother, or sister, or someone of significant nature, shut the hell up.