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I can't stand myself. I can't stand living inside my own head anymore. I can't stand my thoughts, my feelings, my heart, all which have become disgusting, repulsive things to me. I can't stand to look in the mirror. I can't stand the failure of my life. I can't stand remembering the last ten years, in which nothing has changed. In fact, I've ( Read more... ) -
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It's almost 5 am and I'm still just sitting here, staring, catatonic, into empty space. Nothing much is going on in my head except.... How much everything hurts. It's pointless to write this. I no longer have the words left to express what i'm feeling right now. words are all used up. I don't even know how to speak for my sadness anymore. -
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I can't stand this. I really just want to die. I can't take going through the same things over and over again, having the same loop play over and over in my head. I can't stand it. -
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im nothing but a joke. my life is nothing but failure. i have no more words for the darkness i'm feeling. and everyone's probably just laughing at me.
i can barely breathe right now. the darkness is suffocating
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the best day for geeks, ever
Today is the best day for geeks, ever. We have found out that there might be warp-drive someday, and also there is water on Mars. I told you so!
Furthermore, it has been announced that there is a new Harry Potter spinoff book coming out on December 4, The Tales of Beedle the Bard. There is also a new series by the Death Note team coming out ( Read more... ) -
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OK, so my store is having a release party for Stephanie Meyer's Breaking Dawn book. Unfortunately, I was one of the people chosen to work the party. I was chosen to be a fortune teller, so I have to do fake readings. I think I'll be good at BSing it. It's going to be mostly teenage girls, so I'll say squee-worthy things like, "I see a special ( Read more... ) -
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Nothing much to report here. Absolutely nothing. And there's no end to this nothingness in sight. -
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I'm not feeling right at all. I've been completely absorbed in fantasies for the past week so. Not even the kind of fantasy that makes me want to write. I keep retreating deeper and deeper into this inner life that I've built for myself, and if I get any deeper, I might snap. I don't know what to do. I know it's probably a result of an ( Read more... ) -
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Well, since my store is having a midnight release party for Breaking Dawn, I've decided to read Twilight. I remember reading it a long time ago, when i came out, and I wasn't too impressed.
And well, I'm reading it again, and I'm still not impressed. In fact, I don't like it all. Am I missing something here? I was expecting something, like, ( Read more... )