your going crazy... as for me, im already there! haha

bleh bored

and awake.. and nobody else is.. and that is sucky ]:

Fuck This Shit! i'm done.

so i think i have the solution of all solutions.

boys can be so confusing.
im getting tired of the way they do things.
i need to meet someone new,
someone that is more mature than
all these silly guys i know.

i am so happy right now.. ahhh
nothing can bring me down

the only way my life could be any better
is if ryan michelle haywood/my bff would move back! ahh

im officially looking haha

1. ryan haywood and i were best friends for awhile and i loved her with all my heart.. and then even when we stopped hanging out i still cared about her a lot.. so yeah we hungout on friday for the first time in awhile.. and well the only way to explain it is.. if you were to break up with a boyfriend/girlfriend that you were still in love with and ( Read more... )

i didn't have my heart broken..
i had it ripped out and run over continuously!
and i thought i wouldn't be capable of
liking someone again, well not just liking them
but getting butterflies from being around them
and having so much fun just sitting around..
im glad i met this new person, 
wether we end up dating or not.
im happy.

i try to eat away my feelings,
but nothing satisfies my hunger.
i try to sleep and avoid life,
but i still feel tired all the time.
i surround myself with people,
but i still feel so alone.
i hate not being near where i want to be.
i only wish that i had control of my life.
but it seems i don't in many ways.
i miss the feeling of pure happiness.
i just want ( Read more... )

i was so happy with where i was
and now im just on the side of the road..
thrown aside like a cigarrette butt just tossed out the window.
how do i deal with this change?
i don't want to be selfish..
but am i the only one in the wrong here?
i don't even know what feelings are real now.
all i know is the feeling of hurt that is pouring into my heart.