Comments | _alovelost9_: tonight it came back

_alovelost9_

tonight it came back

Feb 10, 2006 00:55

thoughts of wanting to die, not waking up from my sleep and being gone from people came across my mind, in my insecurity i feel like people dont care about me, i guess in a way i dont see it enough from people that they really care about me, so i feel that way, this world is filled with so much drama, emotional stress and hurt, its an ugly world ( Read more... )

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ashleyxcorex February 10 2006, 04:29:18 UTC

The thought that you were suicidal never crossed my mind until you said something about it.
I'll pray for you babyboy.
♥
I know we dont talk that much and I'm usually REALLY busy. But I am gonna try to talk to you whenever I have time.
:]

_alovelost9_ February 10 2006, 08:15:48 UTC

thanks, i appreciate, im thinkin bout calling you tonight, but if you call me if you have time, it would be cool, i just dealt with my friend rubbing in my face that he could get some girl thats a friend of mine who i like also
anyways
i hope your having a good day
takl to you whenever you call, i wont be online tonight, so just call me, ill be up all night
love you
Champ

xlaurabethx February 10 2006, 08:26:39 UTC

champ.
even though we only see each other ever so often,
i love you, and miss you.

and know that there are some good people in the world.

_alovelost9_ February 10 2006, 21:43:23 UTC

thanks i appreciate that alot
i just had a rough nite
thanks for caring i appreciate it alot

kistadoll February 10 2006, 09:43:27 UTC

I don't think you're suicidal. We think a lot alike. I think a lot of people do, they just don't want to admit it. I don't think you're crazy or anything. I like honesty and reality. Keep posting how you feel. It's refreshing to know that someone is in the same boat.
Christa

_alovelost9_ February 10 2006, 21:43:47 UTC

yea, thanks for the advice, i just had a rough nite last night
anyways yea
Champ

theginkooath February 10 2006, 10:05:54 UTC

I have those exact thoughts all the time. It has nothing to do with suicide, it is just you would rather be where true joy rests. It is hard for people like us in this world because we are in enemy territory(sp?). There is a constant spiritual battle between good and evil over every humans soul. People like us can sense it and it brings us down. We try to help those who are in need, but Jesus is the only one who can truly save someone, and for that to happen, they will need to be willing to accept that help. Noone wants to do that though. Everyone wants to solve things themselfs. I understand exactly how you feel and I explain those very exact thoughts to Jesus at least once a week. Our time will be soon. For now, we need to keep our heads high and stand strong together. We are weak on our own, but together we can take an army. Remember that there are people who need us. That is our purpose. We have that smile and presence that gives people hope. Why? Because we understand pain. We hurt, but we use that hurt to our advantage and thay ( ... )

_alovelost9_ February 10 2006, 21:44:17 UTC

indeed, i know their is a greater purpose for me, so ending my life, would make people sad and upset, so its not worht it
Champ

waiting_forlife May 12 2006, 08:21:56 UTC

Hi! I know you!
It's Kim... Jake's ex.
Can I add you?