...this is not what i want. at all. or maybe it is. maybe i can't stop it cause i really do want it. maybe i don't know what i want. he's got so much going for him. so many great things. but i have no faith in him anymore. that fucking whore ruined that. completely. gah. and then there's tyson. i really want to be able to at least give him a chance ( Read more... )

life is... i don't know a good word for it. BLAH. haha. whatever i'm stupid ( Read more... )

happy valentines day everyboddyyyy haha

time to go to work. (:

tonight will be exciting. (:

soo. i got my hair cut/dyed today. i didnt like it for about 20 minutes. but now i do. it's different. but good different. i'll probably take some pictures over the weekend with MIRANDA AND MELISSA which should be(better be) reaalllyy really fun ( Read more... )

so i had a good weekend. pretty much.

friday. things didn't go as planned. ended up hanging out with ricky and getting pissed at him for being gay. yeah that was fun. haha. saw kevin too. and barlow.. still miss that kid.

okay ill stop that now.

saturday. went on this "date" with my coworker, tyson. we were supposed to go see the gay cowboy movie ( Read more... )

oh man, what have a gotten myself back into?!?

everything was funny today ( Read more... )

since when can you have 6 users pics? cool ( Read more... )

hi guys.

...i'm happy.

so i had a bad week and was feeling really sorry for myself but im over that. i've come to the realization that you just have to learn to love what you've got. and everything...EVERYTHING..happens for a reason. you just can't always see that reason at first. and there's nothing wrong with being happyOH...aannndd...i'm not ( Read more... )