If You Want Me Again

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Title: If You Want Me Again
Author: nieded
Fandom; Characters: House, MD; James Wilson and Gregory House
Prompt: housefic50; James Wilson; 48. Writer's Choice: Sacrifice
Rating: PG
Dislcaimer: Not mine!
Author's Notes: Wilson's reaction to hearing House turned himself in, but that Tritter didn't accept. This also explores the two attempting forced normalcy. The

Comments

[panda_chibi]

This... this was very good. It seemed so real, I love it. You presented it in such a way that I could totally see it happening on the show. Not that it ever would, because they'll never have either one of them expressing their love (even in a platonic sense, at least not using the word 'love.'), and I get the sense that many people would be all "Wilson would never commit suicide, jumping the shark, GAH!" or something of that nature...

*mems*

[nieded]

But I think Wilson committing suicide would seem incredibly plausible if it really gets that bad and House doesn't intervene. Wilson's definitely suffering from depression, or at least that's how I interrupt his speech to Tritter about not testifying in MLC, and that's what I tried to portray here.

[woodencoyote]

I agree with you. There was very little self-worth in that speech.

[panda_chibi]

Oh, I agree with you. I've stuck by "Wilson is depressed" since Fools for Love... But at the slightest mention of it, at least over on house_md, people said I was insane, that themes of suicide would be jumping the shark... People saying that Wilson has no reason to be depressed, that he's not 'weak' enough to commit suicide (now that made me angry)... People just like living in fantasy land, I guess. I don't know, with all the shit Wilson's goes through in his life, has been through, especially lately... Depression is definitely plausible

[nieded]

I'm glad you liked it!

Maybe there will be a sequel once I see how the next few episodes pan out. Obviously, Wilson's not going to do it because House, MD wouldn't be very interesting to watch inside a jail cell.

Except for some... extracurricular activities that happen in the... >.>
<.<

ANYWAY.

Thanks!

[bloodanna]

Oh. *cries* I just watched Dead Poets Society I shouldn't be reading things like this!

Though sad this really is good. Wilson seems the one to do that kind of thing amd I can definitely see it happening on the show the way it's presented here.

Correct me if I'm wrong, but was the ending like the beginning of a suicide pact? I don't know, maybe it's just that I can see Wilson saying it and looking up at House with those sad "Jump with me..." eyes, but that “Do you believe in an afterlife?” feels like it has some a darker meaning to it.

[nieded]

My angle from that line kind of went like this:

House asked that question repeatedly in the beginning of their conversation and Wilson gave him some half-assed response that never got explored, mainly because Wilson had been stewing in his office for quite some bit contemplating whether or not he should actually go along with his plan if House didn't take the deal, and didn't want to give away what he was feeling to House. At the end of the scene, Wilson turns the question back on him. Is this it? All we have left? Or do you think it'd be easier to end it now and see you in the next life? That's kind of my take, but as I left it open ended, it could mean anything to the reader.

I'm glad you liked it, and yeah, after watching Dead Poets Society, reading fics inspired by Whitman about a death involving Robert Sean Leonard does not bode well for the heart.

[longstrt]

Interesting story. Should have been developed more. Yes, some typos, but you have the beginning of what could be a great 3 or 4 story arc.

[nieded]

Ah. I'm not really a big fan of story arcs I guess and instead used this to explore use of dialogue and a short amount of space. It always seemed to me that my story would get wrecked by all things canon. >.

[med_anomaly]

Aww...poor Wilson. Great dialogue in this. I could totally picture this scene. Wilson seems to have been depressed for some time now. I love how House nudges the papers closer to Wilson's hand, like a prelude to when he grabs it in his at the end. The afterlife conversation, House's furniture antics and snide, self-absorbed comments when Wilson says he's having a midlife crisis, all very in character, which just made me feel even more for Wilson. I look forward to reading more of your fic :).

[nieded]

Aw, thank you! I think dialogue's become my forte, so I hope it didn't seem like some of the detail got scrapped for more talk -- if that made sense.