You want everything everything everything everything outta me now

[_ava_adore_]

I  get this feeling sometimes. I feel like I want to disapeer, or cease to exist. It always occurs when I am with one or more people. Seeing as how I can not magically disapeer, and dramatic exits are not my thing I just kind of go within myself. I guess it is impossible to describe in words-and really that is my problem at these times..I can never

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[eternalchicken]

Because you have irrationally transferred the fear or distrust of someone or something in the past to your present and generalized it to the point where you're unconsciously trying to protect yourself from any further damage by never making yourself vulnerable to anyone, even those you trust the most?

[_ava_adore_]

makes sense. Thank you.

[humor_is_a_gift]

Gurrrl call me.
You've been so patient with my sadness, i wanna hear yours, and try and make you feeeel better!
I think...maybe I could understand you?
I don't know, but I love you, and I'm calling you at somepoint tomorrow, if you don't call me!

[_ava_adore_]

my phone is dead now but I will call you, thank you though, and I love you.

[ohmygodmuffin]

..I have a written journal entry somewhere that describes something very similar to this. So I think I understand, to some extent.

And I love you. Are you still here? If you see this and have a chance maybe stop by sometime to-night? If you're around, to say goodbye or whatever.

[gininasippycup]

I LOVE YOU!!!

[humor_is_a_gift]

Renee, you can't possibly be so busy that you can't at least make a LITTLE update in this!
I know you're lovin life and dont want to miss it by staring at a computer, but come on, help out all of us that want to live vicariously through you!

[_ava_adore_]

yo I have been wanting ot update like everyday..I really am that busy as sad as that is..so don't think that I am having too much fun.