its been a while

[_ball_and_chain]

its been a while since i've even looked at this site. crazy. many things are going on in my head right now. mainly the future of friends and myself. i'm so scared for everything. i don't want to lose what i love and cherish most in life, the most important people in my life now. i'm staring to realize i need to figure out what i want out of life,

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sometimes losing everything you love helps you find things you love more. i didnt realize it at first but ive lost everything i love. my old life, ALL my friends (since none of them keep in touch) and even my own family. unfortunately theres a good chance i may even lose my life. the best part is, im comfortable with it all. why? because i know its for a good reason. if i die but as a result i can save thousands of lives then i dont care. its a trade off worthy in my mind. besides, its not like i was much use as a civilian anyways haha.

the point im trying to make here is, sometimes, people are better off without one-another. if all having someone in your life is doing for you is makeing everything harder for everyone then its probably best your lives take different directions anyway. sure itll hurt at first but time heals everything.

anyhoo, sorry for the long ass post, (this is andrew by the way in case you forgot who i was haha) but, take care and cheer up bucko.