who am i fooling?
i haven't put forth an effort in years.

my mind is so set on winwinwin that i can't even wake up and smell the flowers. i think it's about time i got over it and started feeling something.
anything is a start.

i don't ever want to say goodbye to boyfriendless, commitment-free, makin out in parking lots, snugglin, pizza-filled, dance partyin, staying up til 5 so we can wake up at 8 and go to work at 9:30 in the mornings, singing so loud in the car that we make friends in the car over, friends huggin, friends kissin, hot cocoa drinkin 2005.

i cannot organize my thoughts, but you must believe that i have some.

school:i am in a near constant state of disbelief and blah. i am overloaded with work and facing the first semester of my college career questioning if i'll make deans list. i am living for feeling anything besides stress and like i'm going to DIE.
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i am so afraid of being absolutely fucking inept.
and i am unsure if i've ever felt more so than i do now.

and i have never known a city more able of sucking my insides out of me than this one.

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exboyfriends are totally complete tools. i am beginning to see absolutely no reason to ever be mad because really fighting and always feeling superior and stupid is wicked gay ( Read more... )

holy caacaa.

there is so much less of my middle finger knuckle skin than there was before i started cutting my hair.

ouch.

hey you know, life is really strange.

but such a fucking good weekend.

i would say even better than this.

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i am slowly realizing this is a game i cannot win. which dissapoints me only until i realize that our relationships run a completely paralell life, and that this life is hardly intersecting. i remember thinking about it in some crazy romantic setting, you and your two girlfriends at a movie or a dance or something. one girlfriend has to win, one ( Read more... )