I knew it, I just knew it. How come I fall completly for someone that is just going to hurt me, make me fall hard. I'm hoping that this time around isn't as bad as last time. I don't think I can handle a hit. I'm going to take a break from him, its what I need and I think its what he needs. He's an awsome guy but yeh. I'm falling fast and am ( Read more... )

Dear Steph,

Falling for him will just make another break in me and I would truely appriectiate to not break again for quite sometime. I don't know if I can handle another person I care deeply about leaving. Please consider not falling for him, if at all possible.

Sincerely,
Your loving Heart....

Possiblity of a new job as a baquent server at the hotel behind Bennigans on merle hay. Now, leaving Chili's is another thing but Jorge is most definity right I need to leave. There just isn't money at Chili's anymore and they treat me like shit. Fuckers. Gah....

-Stephanie

I truely can't explain the emotions and feelings going through me right now. I can't just sit back and explain why I'm feeling the way I'm feeling. If I could frankly I probably wouldn't be feeling like this. I'm working a lot lately, meaning that something is bother me but what?
I'm craving attention. Is that bad? I believe so. I'm craving it but ( Read more... )

I attempted to make a chicken tender melt at home today. It actually came out pretty good.

I pierced my ear again, twice. Wait till it heals and then I go in and get the bar put in! Excited!

-Stephanie

I like knowing that things will be the same but I also like doing something different and spontanous every once in a while. I like knowing that I'll always have someone there even if they believe I don't open up to them that often. Thats how I am, really thats who I am. I've been disappointed too many times in life that it takes a great deal of ( Read more... )

Oklahoma was good. It was a nice vacation. And it was good to see Guy. But I'm glad I'm back.


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Ah! Today was a good day. The summer shall be good I believe. I'm just now realizing it. No more dwelling on the past(the annoymous fucker who commented on my last entry that I deleted is correct. I do dwell on the past way too much but thats how I am. Thats how I've been my whole life, so fuck off and don't be a baby and show who you are.)

I'm ( Read more... )

I missed the El Oso show last nite at the mews.
Troubled Hubble show was good on Friday in Iowa City. The road trip with Mandy was funny. I just can't wait to go to Oklahoma with her, it shall be fun.

I've been working. A lot that is lately. I need the money for Oklahoma and Oklahoma is creeping up on me fast. But working a lot means missing out on ( Read more... )

Offically to me, it's summer. Which means late nites out with friends and just enjoying the freedom of not having to get up and go to classes.
Walking around downtown.
Camping.
Whatever the summer wants to throw at me.
Sitting around watching movies and doing whatever makes me happy.
But what does make me happy anymore? I honestly don't know anymore.
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