i am doing an essay on ten ways to improve the school canteen. for tammy tan. hahahaha.
today was better, should learn to count my blessings, and one of them starts with a "T" :)

today was a horrible feel-loser day. but i just feel. really numb?
hell, nothing's changed, really. things become more apparent though. shouldnt i be more than aware already.

i don't want to look back a long long time after this just to realize how happy i've always been, even with the unecessary thoughts i torture myself with from time to time, so yes staying clean (and far off) is good ( Read more... )

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met yiting and vicky today!! it was really really fun to see them again after such a darn long time! DARN LONG TIME. hehehehehe the fun fair at nygh was damn crowded, but it was so nice to see our teachers again. like lydia! and mr lim. so anyway we left cos it was really much too crowded to get around, let alone have fun. wanted to bring them to ( Read more... )

hellohello!! i've got lots to say about today!! the blocks are finally over ahahah initially thought i wouldnt feel that happy because it'd still feel the same but HEY I AM HAPPY SO HURRAAY. so after geog today (which was majorly taxing omg TAXING TAXES ECONS asfdjk) went out with tammy jl mian HUIYING and LILIN. finally a chance to catch up with ( Read more... )

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I get many deja vus these days. I like the feeling of one, it makes me wonder about whether certain things have really happened before or if they never did, it’s mysterious it feels out of this world and it pleases me because I am sick of the tiring mundane tangibles staring at me. Or perhaps it is because everyday is the same. There’s nothing to ( Read more... )

this holiday feels so empty. feels like i havent done anything enriching nor vaguely interesting and when i read the blogs of ppl who have done meaningful stuff like ocip or pre u sem or when i do hear from them i feel so horribly unfulfilled. well the blame's entirely on me i was too lazy and apathetic to care before and now i wish i hadnt been. ( Read more... )