I just got smacked in the face with reality...and I'm done.

No more hope, no more tears, no more...im done...and it's about time. No more notes, no more writing, no more looking out the window, no more talking about it, no more waiting.

Heh i was a good girl tonight and i stayed home. I spent some quality time with the family...we had a lil 'moment'...but we had lots of fun..then i talked to Giana on the phone--I miss you so much! We have to get a 'manicure' lolol...and you neeeed to stop getting facials...you've gotten like 50 in one week lol and i have to remember to ask for the ( Read more... )

why does life gotsta be this way? Here i am...about to get introduced to the most gorgeous man alive...platonic...and im not fcuking happy...i mean i should be...ive been like dreamin bout this since like forever...and yet...it doesnt fulfill me..damnit this sux...fudgemothers this sux...I remember...when i was so happy...w/ the littlest thing... ( Read more... )

HEY GUYS..guess what..i left school early today...to get lab results and all that other crap...and im officially depressed...how weird is that...only...they prescribed anti-depressants..and guess wat...im not gonna take them! lol...im fine...i feel ok...i mean not GREAT..but im fine...the only medication im gonna take is for anxiety attacks...b/c ( Read more... )

went to the doctors today...dont wanna talk about it....i have to finish my homework...but thats not really workin out....and i have student govt....and im playing cards...samm...king of hearts lolol....and queen of hearts!...yea right...well im doing this game choi taught us that answers your questions about your love life....its funnyyyyyy ..... ( Read more... )

Everyone who's wondering whats going on...ill be ok...i just havent been going thru the best time right now. its hard to explain whats going on...i had another anxiety attack today...i was alone...and one second i got dizzy...and then everything blacked out...it was around 5...then my mother wakes me up and its 6..i dont know what happened in that ( Read more... )

Last night was interesting...i went to the hockey game...i was totally fine...then in the middle of the game i got abnormally dizzy...then i got this huge headache..at the end of the game my chest started hurting...and i couldnt breathe...i had to like lean against corinne and this thing outside just so i wouldnt fall...i had a fcuking anxiety ( Read more... )

ok everyones makin these Happy, Sad, Angry lists so yea im bored so im gonna..lol im a follower, thnx carla for sparking my interest lol::: wow this is really long..

::Happy::

1.  Going into town w/ corinne and getin French Vanilla @ 7-11!!
2.  Tonys!
3.  Meeting lots of new ppl this year, anthony, zane, abel, lauren, gabby...etc.
4.  The Hockey games- ( Read more... )

OK GUYS 4GET EVERYTHING I SAID IN THAT LAST ENTRY...i broke my promise...im not going out tonight at all...I decided to stay home...& watch sad movies and eat tons of ice cream, cry my eyes out, its hard to be strong when you're addicted to the one thing that makes you weak i thought *you* were different...i guess i believed you AGAIN

"I've fallen ( Read more... )

im actually ok right now...bitna knows why...i finally realized what this past months been all about...and im OK w/ that...and yes bitna..i DID hit my head on common sense lol...but thnx 4 being there for me when i needed to cry or when i needed someone to just listen...and samm and corinne have been here for me 100% of the time..and id honestly be ( Read more... )