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[_bobbypinned]

this life that i've been living for the past year has been the most unproductive ever. i feel like i haven't really done anything for myself to make life more gratifying. i continue to grasp onto excuses, that are just that... excuses. i have no reason to be this way, and i scold myself daily for acting like this

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[isangpagibigako]

awwwwwwwww, i get iiiiiit!
makes tons of sense that because people ahve said to be a great parent u have to leave behind the fun-filled life you once had. but that isn't true. just for now you have to focus on caring for jade, but of course she'll grow up and you'll have time to have fun again! well i mean be the fun-filled crazy person. hence why u got camping to go to! because u get to leave the responsibility for a few days and take a break from it. and sometimes thats all people need to feel better. knowing there is a possibility to have fun once again. hopefully theres the boat there again!! im in great need of a tan, once again!! LOL! hahaha!! <33 and seriously, when i go home, we need to do something!! maybe watch a movie even!! just that. little things are fun =] go to six flags or something, since u live RIGHT THERE! haaha, i duno. and even our lil wiiii thing would be fuuun. bowling? i duno, lets have a piiicnic! haha, i cant really think of anything because i dont go anywhere and i dont knwo the HIP HAPPENINGS. LOL! but

[realraisa]

O Val! You make my thing smile. ahahhah ok tmi? dude, you just needed to vent. you can still be the weirdo that you are (dude, that's a compliment---don't worry) haha. i still see how you're cooky, but there are times where you have to be serious... now that you got a little you. it's totally understandable. it's like that for everyone son. but you can still do the things you want to do... just give it time or or take baby steps. then you'll back on the band wagon. or you know what freak it... go for it! hahah. just push yourself. you shouldn't hold yourself back from something you want to get back into. just do it. not like nike, but if you want it then so be it. ; ) you're not alone and i'm pretty sure everyone has gone through what you is going through. don't push what you want to do aside because that wouldn't right. just remember how i still need to work issue. hahahha. ok, i don't know if that makes sense that alone if it remotely goes along with the whole topic about yous. i hope this message makes sense cause lately people don