dear life

[_bytheminutes]

so today was probably the worst day ever. not so much that everything was going wrong but more that I just wasnt feelin it. First off i have a boyfriend who i claim to love and sometimes i question it and it sucks because i dont know what to do and either way one of us is going to be unhappy or end up getting hurt. I have done things that i

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man

[_ohhfuck]

well this post actually made me cry. I wish i could be there when you needed me i think it could make the situation a little better but never right. I know i can never take the place of your mom and id never try to but i wish i showed you a little more affection and i wish i showed you how much i appreciate everything you have ever done for me and just for benig there. shae you are my other half and i love you so much despite anything i do or say. im bad about teling people how i feel but with its diffrent. you matter to me so much and i could never imagine losing your friendship and i never will i just wont let it happen and i promise ill kill anyone who gets in the way of that. dont worry shae boys dont matter that much. right now just worry about the important things like me. IM in important hahah

Re: man

[_bytheminutes]

it really means a lot that you tell me this even though in the back of my head i already knew it. dont worry about my mom i have my good days then others i just want to lock myself in my room and cry for hours and blame everything on me and i wish i can stop the world and have her back all over again. Reality sinks in and i cant and i jsut have to move on and let my experiences make me stronger.

but know that you have always been there
and theres nothing more i could ask of you
thanks for everything

and i know we will be friends for a long time
its just meant to be that way
i know it.

i love you celiena

[_histrionics]

do you ever feel like you dont know where your going or if youll ever be happy? I dont know why i always get into situations like this. I want something/someone then when i get it/them i find out its not what its choked up to be and i dont want it...then when its gone i crave it.

i'm seriously going through this right now and i want to fucking hit myself for letting something go that i want more than anything now.
i never knew anything about your mom but shae youre such an amazing girl. always so happy and with a bright smile on your face it could cheer anyone up.
i wish you'd just move back so me you joey and c can hang out again. that was so fun.
i love you<3

[_bytheminutes]

im glad im not the only one and i knnow exactly how you feel when you just want to smack yourself for letting something you had go and then when you have it wonder why the hell you wanted it

its all mind games
and no one is ever happy
its that simple

i thought you did but now you do know
and its something that has made me who
i am today

and i guess im alright?

hahah
i wish i could go back when you celiena joey and me
were all laughing
and eating pizza like cows.
hhaha

we will make more memories for sure

love you too.

<333333