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So it's been a week and a half. Seems like it was another lifetime, some days it seems like it was last night. Been doing shit to keep my mind off it, hell, even been doing homework. Guess that's a plus.
Sometimes I ask myself what the hell was I thinking. Don't have an answer for that, all I know's I went what with felt right and seemed like a good idea at the time. Maybe I was dumb. Who knows.
But that's also a week and a half since I last said anything to him, and the last thing I said was how much I hated him. Oshitari's right -- I gotta put that right, that was a lie and it was the worst lie ever. Even if he knows it's not true, knowing's not enough. I've gotta tell him. After the shit I pulled I'll be surprised if he wants to talk to me again, let alone listen, but I've gotta at least make an effort.
I can't fight my way back into someone's heart. It's not the kinda system where there's loopholes. All I can do is make my case. And if it doesn't work, it's not my fault.
But shit, we're still partners. At least. That's not gonna change no matter what.
[ Oshitari: Hey, you guys still getting that group together for the musical? Any chance there's room for one more? ]
[ Hiyoshi: I don't say this much, but thanks. ]
So much for spring. Things are gonna start changing around here again, and fast.