and sometimes, I wonder what I'm doing here. when often, I'm reminded of the stress I cause and how I'm the the fault behind reasons. I know i'm here partly because i'm scared, scared of how I'm supposed to handle the situation of leaving. Its like a rusted handle that isn't going to budge towards either direction. while the rust slowly but surly ( Read more... )

seans leaving in 2 days for 2 weeks. its going to be the longest amount of time we've not seen eachother in about 8 months. I'm a little worried about the whole situation but I'm sure everything will be fine, maybe even refreshing. something to make us open our eyes to things we've closed our eyes to. he's seroiusly the most patient tolorating ( Read more... )

I'm ready, I'm ready to leave and never come back.

I can solidly say I don't know what I want in life, however that should not be confused with unhappiness. I'm completely satisfied with my life now, becuase I'm living, I have a few good friends that really care and I have a mom who I love more then anything and recently have been getting along better then ever. [If my life was a game of poker I'd ( Read more... )

tomorrow isn't yours to keep
but you're still here with me
your pain is gone,
you were in it for too long
Your heart beat for the last time
and I was looking in your eyes
I began to cry
my memories wont ever die.
you might be gone
but you're still alive.

RIP Cona.

Today was a struggle.
a struggle to hold back tears.
a struggle to reasure myself everythings for the best.
a struggle because I'm so afraid of leaving the past and picking up the future.
a struggle to keep my cool and wear a smile.
a struggle to sit and watch my dog in pain and remember a long solid 13 years of loving companionship that has to be ended ( Read more... )

p.s. I've had my braces for five years. I get them off april 10th. No one I hang out with has ever seen me without braces, its gunna be DANK.

so I deleted my myspace again.
I'm sure I'll end up making a new one sooner or later because thats just how things go, but for now i'm myspace free and Its better this way.

for now.
okay?

-shanelle.

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