cold, cold water surrounds me now

[_cellerdoor]

i am an unhappy person
i strongly dislike myself
i strongly dislike my body
i hate the things i do
i take drugs

i am abusive
i am untrusting
i am deadly
i am irrational
i am pathetic
i am fat
i am ugly
i am tired
i am tired
i am so so tired of pretending.

so tired.

nothing in my life makes sense nothing i do or say or feel makes sense.

i feel like everything

Comments

[_starpower]

*smooches*
just...go to sleep and don't do anything wrong.
love you.

[vintagexsparkle]

i feel so many of the same things you feel. really i do.
i've been feeling these things for so long now, & i don't think they're going to go away. i really wish those thoughts would just leave me though, because i feel so...emotionally trapped. :(
but aimée, you aren't fat. nor ugly. you're so beautiful. & you're a sweet person.
just know you arent alone, & that things will eventually get better.
xxx