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Brutal MeMe - Take Two.....

Jul 12, 2006 02:46

Aw...isn't anyone except the lovely Nicole ( bunny1981 ) and the wonderful Jenna ( sixx_guns ) gonna reply 2 my last post? *cries*. Come on guys, I'm giving u a guilt-free opportunity 2 anonymously tell me what u really think of me! (I stupidly left the last entry as "friends only", which of course meant that u couldn't reply anonymously. Duh! I've left this entry ( Read more... )

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anonymous July 12 2006, 06:46:21 UTC

I think that you have enormous inner strength, and a very kind heart.

I smile when I see your comments in my journal, you are always so supportive.

I know how hard it is to not care too much what people think... especially with severe ME when people are so wrong about the illness!!!!! So we can both work on believing in ourselves :)

_chaotictears_ July 15 2006, 02:36:37 UTC

Aww, thanku so much 4 your lovely comment :)

I'm glad I make u smile, & I'm really pleased that u consider me supportive. I hope I am. I want 2 be. I try 2 be. I guess I just tend 2 say whatever is truly in my heart....I never make it up or just say what I think ppl want 2 hear. I try 2 put my own past experiences 2 good use, & use them 2 give my friends advice. So I do hope I'm of some help sometimes. I know I tend 2 go on (& on!), & I can often be too full-on/OTT/straightforward/however u want 2 put it 4 some ppl, but I never mean 2 hurt any1 or cause offense. That's why I'm touched u said I have a kind heart....because I like 2 think I do, too (well, most of the time, anyway!).

"I know how hard it is to not care too much what people think... especially with severe ME when people are so wrong about the illness!!!!!"You're so right! Having lived under the suspicion of many Dr's/nurses 4 so long, I tend 2 get paranoid V easily now, convincing myself that ppl are talking about me behind my back, or that the only reason they bother ( ... )

anonymous July 12 2006, 11:41:39 UTC

I think your amazing, you care so much about other people and have so much to give! You may not be able to speak with a voice in the 'real world' but you make up for it by letting yourself 'free' online, and I am so glad you can ( ... )

_chaotictears_ July 15 2006, 02:43:39 UTC

Oh, WOW! I can't tell u how touched I was by your amazing comment. It was obviously v carefully constructed & thought out, & it must have used up so much precious energy. I was literally in tears when I 1st saw it (in a good way!), & I've read it over & over again about a million times since then. Thanku SO much. Honestly, I can't say enough how much your words meant 2 me.....Are u sure u were talking about me tho?! ;)

Seriously, if I really have helped u 2 cope with this shitty illness - even in just a tiny way - then I'm happy. As I said 2 the person above, I try 2 take what I've learnt from my past horrendous experiences with the medics & use that painfully gained knowledge 2 help my wonderful friends get thru their own difficulties now. I'm no expert on coping - not by any stretch of the imagination - but I believe that if we are lucky enough 2 find ppl online that we can relate 2, & who we connect with, then no matter how ill we are, or how often we are (or arent) able 2 get in contact, we can still be there 4 each other 2 offer ( ... )

anonymous July 15 2006, 16:46:25 UTC

I've not knowen you very long, but I hope I know you for a very long time.
There is something about you that draws me too you. I cant put my finger on it, but I get excited when you leave me comments or when I see your name on my friends page.
I have so much respect for you, you deal with things no one should ever experance, and you do it with out loosing that beautiful spark that makes you you.
You, despite probably feeling illness most will never be able to comprehend, always have kind and loving words for others. You are constantly offering your friendship to others, not just that, but you are always [and I mean always] empathetic, understanding and comforting. You go out of your way to make sure people are ok, to make sure they know your thinking of them, to make sure they know there is someone who really cares .. and you always do that inspite of however you might be feeling that day ( ... )

_chaotictears_ July 27 2006, 20:34:41 UTC

Thanku SO much 4 such a wonderful comment! I'm sorry it's taken me awhile 2 reply - pls don't think that that's because I don't genuinely appreciate u taking the time/effort 2 write such amazing things, because I honestly DO. Your words were absolutely lovely & I was really, really touched. In fact, like when I read all the other fantastic comments that ppl left 4 me in this post, I was literally in tears because I couldn't believe just how darn nice ppl were being 2 me! To be honest, I actually have a V hard time believing that it really is me you're all talking about...but I think thats just the well-documented poor self-esteem coming thru yet again. I guess thats something Im gonna have 2 work on.

"I never see an "i" or "me", its always about that person and whatever hardship's they may be facing. Even when that hardship is a broken nail and your dealing with the flash backs of ITU."Im not sure it's true that I never bring myself in2 the comments I leave 4 my friends, as I often try 2 give advice by pulling on my own past ( ... )

anonymous July 21 2006, 13:48:13 UTC

I can think of one word that describes you wonderfully, loving. You're a very open, honest, loving friend, and extremely supportive, no matter what. You're always there and always easy to talk to. I love that you always remember everyone else, no ones birthday is forgotten, and if someone needs support you're there as soon as you can be.

Over the last few years you've helped me, in many ways, and with alot of things. You do inspire me; I don't think you like people saying that but I mean you inspire me as a person, with your opinions and views rather than because of the illness. I respect you for being so honest. I know sometimes you have low self esteem, but you're even honest about that, and that is one hell of a corageous thing to be honest about. Oh, and you have a great sense of humour - a wonderful thing to posess.

You are beautiful, inside and out, because inner beauty always shines out.

I can't think of anything bad to say about you, which perhaps says more than the rest of my comments.