goodbye

[_clevernapkins_]

alright this is my last entry. ever.
which is a good thing, because honestly i think i have grown out of lj.
i'm not traveling or doing anything great like last year,
so everything i write would be boring anyway

first off, i want to say that i had a good run on this baby.
but the sole purpose i got one, was cuz i knew i was going to germany.
but considering that i'm starting college, it's time to get out of the past.

germany gave me an incredible year.
i wont forget it.
and i dont need lj to remind me of it.
and that goes for everything else as well.
corey left yesterday morning.
hes also a fond topic of lj.
but i dont need lj to remember corey dempsey.

but what i do need is to move on with my life.
i cant live in memories of last year in germany
and i cant live in memories of being with corey.

i know corey said we might get back together eventually,
but i doubt it. as much as i want to,
i cant just pretend it's going to happen.
reality is, if he was still inlove with me,
then he wouldnt need to see other people and i would be enough.
but its better i realize that now instead of kidding myself.

i guess, i'm just happy he's still my best friend.
that we didn't ruin anything in the process.
and maybe in a couple years something could work out...
but for now i can't hope for something that's pretty unlikely
but i'm going to see him next month, which i'm very excited for.
and for the record;
i will always love that kid more than anything.

so heres to growing up, and accepting change.
see you guys around.