it's hard when the days are so short and the nights are so long

[_closetome]

i haven't accomplished much of anything these last few months and i keep making excuses for myself. work. school. society. anything to give my mind a little rest. an idea of peace, that everything really is under control, everything is handled, and i don't get that awful feeling that i am worthless to just about everyone and everything. i mean

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[halihayes]

katy, this is every conversation we have. well at least the serious ones. we all feel this way and yet nothing seems to change it. the more we talk about it the more evident it becomes, but we don't reach out any more or smoke or drink any less. and sometimes it hurts. not like a physical pain but just that feeling that something isn't right. and other times i could care less. this place really has made me apathetic to so many things.

i love you. i love our friends. everything you said is true. i also love that when we go back to atascadero i m going to call you and sara all the time because i would miss you guys too much if i didn't. How is it that i am so far from so many people i love and rarely talk to them. i don't like it but its just the way it is. How do i see you every day and get sad when you're at work? maybe we should just actually become the same person. hmm... i'm just so happy that i have you here to make me happy whenever i am feeling down. i hope i do the same for you.

enjoy the eggs!