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[_colee_]

i dont know where the hell i came from.

I am not the perfect child, i was told tonight. I am the reason my mother drinks, because i bring home outside stresses.
Since I have been capable of straight As my whole life, I will continue to get them, so says my mother. Come June, if i have one B, the Country Fair is out.
I hurt my mother, apparently. When

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[aaa_nappernik]

We are all bad kids Nicole. Cause we arent kids. IF we were kids, we would be kids doing bad things... not bad kids.

its all a matter of opinion; anyway.

There is some point when you think you are the only one.. but you arent, there are countless people out there with the same problems.. and the only bad thing about that, what really bothers me; even though not being alone in a situation is somewhat comforting. Is that since you are not the only one.. you arent so unique and individual. Even though thats what we young americans are all about; being individuals.
So even our problems which are so personal we are just like everyone else... lol.. anyways i think i am getting depressing and saying "our" when i am talking about myself.. but hopefully you feel the same.

goodnight Knee-Cole, and i guess you can ask me 20 questions this weekend.. when im drunk.. .lol

how the heck do you make text bold and italic?

[chloeamelia]

you probably won't read this until you get back, which i haaaaate. i want to wrap you up in warm blankets and let you be a little girl and a "bad kid" all at once. i want you to be able to be carefree and independent, not responsibility, stress and guilt-ridden and codependent, as you have become as a little result of your family. (i am the same way, so you are by no means alone

[beccadaisy]

You are not alone. I know exactly how you feel.

I went through everything like you, with the family. But I had you to deal with too, ha. No, just kidding, you weren't so bad.

Don't worry, it will all be over soon. Then somehow you will miss it.
Then go back and realize why you left.

I don't have anything to tell you to make you feel better. But you can always come up and visit me for a few days. Or call me. I am not good with advice for dealing with mom or dad (cause I don't know if I ever did) but anything else is okay.

[tarawillhanna]

in situations such as these, people can try to comfort you, but i know the pain of the situation won't ever really go away until your mom stops drinking, and telling you things you shouldn't have to hear.
im sorry you have to go through this shit nicole, and alex is right, there are so many other people out there who have to deal with the same thing, so if you need someone to talk to, i am really here, for real my love bug.
when my mom used to be an alcoholic and was drunk, she used to say mean things about my friends that were over, and told me she wanted to kill me because i was so ungrateful and unspiritual.
if you're mom has gotten to be too much on a thursday night at 9 o clock, walk out the door. come here, you are ALWAYS welcome here.
dont listen to the verbiose garbage shes spewing, she doesnt really mean it unless she was able to say it to you sober.
im sorry she feels that way, im sorry she isnt the role model mother for you, because thats what you deserve.
i love you nicole.