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May 27, 2003 11:45

The grass does not grow on my mother's grave ( Read more... )

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dirtyemosex May 27 2003, 10:01:57 UTC
Wow, that entry brought tears to my eyes.

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_crumbledarling May 28 2003, 07:57:05 UTC

Heh. My darling, Annabelle - don't cry.
You're too beautifulbeautiful, love.

♥xoxxx

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dirtyemosex May 28 2003, 08:00:57 UTC
Aw, that's so sweet. I just might cry again..:)
Did you ever figure out which friends it were we had in common? Did you hang out with Joe Bynum and that crowd?

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_crumbledarling May 28 2003, 08:40:19 UTC

Aw. Stop that, darling. Heh :]

Joe Bynum - I wasn't friends with him, but I did
have a massive crush on him at one point. I spent a few
lunches at Adam's library prayer mtg. thing in 11th
grade, before I discovered that I could hide out in the art room. He always seemed super-nice, that Joe.

As for 'friends': I kinda knew a boy you dated for a while. A boy you had a crush on and were friends with. And a boy you were friends with - who moved away. &I'm related to one of your friends.
(&Yes, I'm strange when it comes to naming people. Heh.) :]

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__electrique May 27 2003, 10:04:41 UTC
*hugs* this is so honest & beautiful ♥

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maybesomeone May 27 2003, 10:32:30 UTC
Sometimes I wish that I could go so easily as you do to see that which is my father's... But I just can't... At least not now - maybe never... In this I envy you...

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_crumbledarling May 28 2003, 07:55:57 UTC

I think that if it were my father's grave, I wouldn't be
able to go either. I love my father, but I think we tend to have more of a connection with our mothers - in that sense.
I've always loved cemetaries though, and I don't think of going to my mother's as anything having to do with death. (It's my meditation ground.) I think of it as her home, and strangely, it's where I 'feel' her the most. But my ease at going, probably has do to with the fact that it's been this way since I was a child. So the idea is completely comfortable to me. But maybe not. I don't know.
If it's really important to you - force yourself. Because you -can-. And if you're waiting for the moment when you're comfortable with it and it doesn't hurt so much - you're being silly. There's never a right time. You go. It hurts. Then it gets easier.
Best of luck, darling.

♥xo__

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_epilogue May 27 2003, 11:46:00 UTC
That's the most beautiful thing I've ever read. I say this to you often, but that's because each thing you write is more beautiful than the last.

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brilliantdanss May 27 2003, 12:26:40 UTC
im so sorry love, i cant even fathom that. i wish i could make you feel better honey. but i know your mother's proud of you :)

xoxo]

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