Comments | _cuddlefish_: a sudden change in perception

_cuddlefish_

a sudden change in perception

Apr 30, 2011 18:49

I spent the week over easter on the Gold Coast to stay with my folks. There's so much I'd like to get down but I don't think it'll do it justice trying to squeeze it into a single entry. I went to a good friends birthday party on easter Sunday and what happened there has shifted me more than I could ever imagine. This could be a fairly intimate and ( Read more... )

thoughts and feelings

Comments 9

zenandtheart April 30 2011, 11:30:34 UTC

I think this is the best thing about lj, seeing into people's heads and hearts in a way you rarely get face to face.
Open relationships certainly aren't for everyone, but I enjoyed being part of one for years. I hope this continues to bring you happiness:). Sounds like it's come at the right time.

_cuddlefish_ April 30 2011, 11:43:58 UTC

I might have given the wrong impression. I don't think this is an ongoing thing. I'm only looking on it as an isolated episode. In that was so much.

trissemeister April 30 2011, 13:36:14 UTC

It's amazing how something like this can so completely shift your thinking - hold on to this feeling, and use it as a solid foundation to build upon. <3

_cuddlefish_ May 1 2011, 07:39:00 UTC

Thank you 'trisse and thanks for the chats last night too.

fivecats April 30 2011, 23:16:12 UTC

being open to what life has to offer is an essential part of truly being alive.

keep working on staying open.

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_cuddlefish_ May 1 2011, 07:43:42 UTC

The weird thing is that I was not aware of how much I'd lost it. Between dismissing things as grief and trying so hard to stay focused on what I need to, it's sort of logical to close off as a matter of course.

fivecats May 4 2011, 01:05:26 UTC

when my first marriage ended i went through a similar time. i was aware that i had lost something valuable, but i wasn't aware how much that loss affected me -- how much i lost it in terms of by sense of balance with the world and other people and, most of all, myself.

having a friend tell me, in essence, "no, you're a whole lot more messed up than you think you are" was what it took for me to see through that. i'm glad it's taken far less to allow you to regain focus.

keep staying strong.

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katmeow May 1 2011, 02:45:38 UTC

That animation is great :) Goes well with the tone of the post as well!

_cuddlefish_ May 1 2011, 07:46:27 UTC

Amazing isn't it? So much of it feels so right. I'd actually describe it as accurate.