I'm tired of bitching. I had to walk to work. It was okay, i had the chance to listen to music, and just.. walk... I guess. So, Michael IMed me last night, about 9:30. Our discussion is always about something... that has meaning. I would think that he would bore me, or annoy me if we spoke about music. I am sure he’d hate every band I like. I guess ( Read more... )

I came to the conclusion that I am not happy. Yes, I know… You people are probably saying “duh”. I figured out that the only way to actually be comfortable and not be caught up in all these moments of despair, is if I simply ignore how I feel. I sit here and watch the light penetrating through this glass screen, and I see no reflection. I like it ( Read more... )

What the fuck is he thinking???? Schwarzenegger is trying to set up a "minor law" abolishing every homeless animal. In shelters and in pounds. What if this is accomplished? If he gets his way? *Sigh* Damn the world has gone to hell. We have a fucking actor as a governor.

Hey there cracked God ( Read more... )

I got in an argument with my Mother again, you know how that goes. This week has been horrible. That just fed the fire. I hate these arguments because I cannot talk back to her. I mean, I cannot even defend myself. I wish I was younger. So, whenever she got mad, she would solve everything by just hitting me. Words hurt too much. They stick by you, ( Read more... )

How sad. I’m nothing but a hypocrite. A no good piece of shit. My mom and younger siblings went to my older brother’s house to sleep over. I was feeling miserable and I found a couple of wine coolers, beer, and a bottle of red wine. Yes, I got shit faced. I’m not proud of it, at all. I hope no one noticed though. Some dick IMed me just now trying ( Read more... )

I want to die

I had a prety big beet down l;ast night. I came home pritty late. I wokre up at about 9 am this morning. My mom wanted me to go with her to clean some house. Thios journal wouldn’t log me on. Sstupdi shit!! Anyway I go to work..in about 3 hours,… I don’t feel so good. I came from eating with my mom, atr the John’s Incredible Pizas I was like ‘mAn ( Read more... )

Well. I busted my ass last night at work. Er... I worked with the manager. I think i'm done being a bitch for the rest of the week. I know Daniel and JAmes are utterly pissed at me right now. I was in a bad mood. I can't see how Daniel can base his life on a girl, and can choose his friends over one. Anyway, i guess it's love, what i will never ( Read more... )

Well.. There's nothing to eat. Like always. My mom cooked food for everyone, and I told her I was hungry too. She got pretty pissed off, and told me I wouldn’t eat anything that she gave me anyway. She doesn't support me in anything I do. She just thinks I'm crazy. I'm not going to give this up because of her. I refuse to give in. So, I’ve been ( Read more... )