Everything feels unsettled today. I'm not sure if it's
Buffy being gone... still... or
Avasa having to leave for a little while because of his grandmother's death, or just that I miss my friends and some of it's my own fault. Or maybe it's all of that
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"Hi, Dawn. Decided to join the paint party?" I ask. After this is done, I'm never gonna want to see another paitbrush again.
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I glance around, trying to figure out what I should do to help. Finally I grab a brush and sit down next to her, dipping it in the paint and helping to fill in the large area of fake wall she's working on. "What's going on with you? Haven't talked to you in a while."
Because I suck and I'm a horrible friend.
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I dip my brush in a darker gray and spatter it to approximate a rough texture on the wall. I know I'm being avoidy about talking about Jordy, mainly because I'm so hurt. Even though I know it probably wasn't really him saying that stuff.
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I don't even know where to start, so I paint in silence for a couple of minutes.
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I shiver, just a little.
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I sigh. "We were talking...but he's so far from making any sense, and he'd been seeing some guy he calls a priest but who really looks like a drug dealer or pimp or something. Plus he burned his hand on the locket Sophie made me take to him and it still hasn't healed, and I was saying wasn't there some special ointment or something for silver burns, and--"
"He asks why am I worried, we're not friends anyway," I finish quickly, afraid I'm gonna get choked up again.
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I trail off, rubbing my nose absently.
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I stab the brush back into the can of gray paint, a little angry now.
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Another sigh...god, I gotta get over this mood. "Only, I've talked to a bunch of them, and I can never quite break through enough to figure out how it happened. But Jordy's in bad shape...have you talked to him at all?"
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I think about that for a minute, then I say, very carefully, "If you did, there wouldn't be anything wrong with that, you know. He's younger and all, but look how much older Avasa is than me. Sometimes age doesn't matter so much."
I steal a glance at her.
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No, no, no, you are not thinking about this, it's stupid, and besides he's seeing Sophie, end of story. Think about Scott some more. He's cute, he's tall, he's nice. Okay, so he's a bit of a burnout, but still, very nice.
"Kind of a moot point, though, since he's dating Sophie," I add.
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