As morbid as it seems I actually admire you for it The planning I mean.
death is inevitable If it helps you keep going now Then I guess we should use it
Everyone else does.
Don't die before you've really seen it all Because you might think you have then as you're dying you'll remember Something you always wanted to see but forgot about.
And that'd distract you Which would be horrible Because it's a beautiful way to die As long as you don't forget anyhting.
Yea. We should hang out more often, skipping advisories and such.
advisory is a waste of time colin evans is in my advisory and since he reads psyche books alot i asked him about these feelings of disattatchment i keep getting because they're starting to bother me and i don't feel rooted or connected i don't feel real sorry i can't explain it
so colin starts nodding and i'm getting excited because maybe he has a cure or something and then he goes, yeah you have this wicca gift and some shit like that so thanks a fucking lot sorry to rant
i adore you i'm glad you approve i'm glad it's not more than 30 years because 30's a good number for me.
I don't think that was supposed to be funny But I laughed anyways so feel free to laugh at me ya know, when it's not funny
You probably do have some sort of deep hidden wicca talent One day you'll be sitting in class and thinking about something deep and mystical and you'll lay an egg or something.
You only feel dissatached because you don't know what you want yet. That was Hemingway's problem. He lived his whole life and never had any idea what he wanted.
Hell, that's everybody's problem. Or almost everybody.
But I think you're diffrent, for the most part. I believe you can find what you want If I didn't I wouldn't be wasting my time Talking to you And skipping advisories and such.
i somewhat understand what your talking about on the planned death topic, i say somewhat because i do not know your specific detalis behind it. my plan is alot like yours except i have planned to do it the day i turn 50, on my birthday, i have still to plan out exactly the circumstances of my own demise but ive got a bit of time. life after 50 is just your body returning its self to its original state. you lose motor skills like the ones you didnt have when you were 3, you lose the cohernet speech from which you had as a toddler, your strength, your lack of bodily controll, it all leads (except for those who succum to natural and un natural death other then the generic killer known as "old age") up to the point were we are completly dependent on the people around us as when we were newly born. this is what really scares me, losing what i have, losing my body, my mind, the very substance of who i am. and i figure 50 is about when it starts to turn backwards
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sometimes i feel that maybe people see other things when they look at me like a mirror is a lie and is playing games with each of our eyes if i die...which your post made me think of i would want to die young in a warm bubble bath filled with rose petals with my favorite song blasting i think that would basically complete my life. in a way i would WANT it to be completed as.
Mirrors are for looking. If you don't like to look, don't invest in a mirror, I can personally verify it as a waste of time. But the reflection they show can't be the same as everyone else sees I think that people usually see themselves in a more negative light than those around them just something to think about
other people can plan ahead too, you know. and other people are just as, if not more (and i use that term lightly...more...in reality it would be far more) eloquent than you could ever be.
so you need to give humanity a little heads-up before it barrels right through you.
what good it is to have all these "deep" thoughts and never express them to the world?
they aren't deep. at first i thought maybe i was one of those philosophical deep types and i was flustered and strangely pleased. then i realized i'm just wierd. probably not as much as i think. i'm really probably exactly the same as everyone else except for some small iota of my brain that i will kill with caffine drinking or smoking and that makes me much more upset i hate the idea of being the same
not to say i deliberately act different because even that would be the same
there's someone i know who mentioned how goth kids all dress in black so there's no way they are nonconformists
the same thing goes for most people and i hate it.
i love how you insulted me. thanks. i feel great now. real eloquent. real inspired.
this was fun to read.childofthemallJanuary 16 2005, 17:11:24 UTC
it's kristin from english class. and no i don't update my livejournal. I'm oldschool, I stick to my xanga. And no, you're not getting the address.
Anyways!...
i was reading this little strand of conversation, and did you really mean "thanks" for being insulted? Or did anonymous just inspire you or something....or were you being sarcastic?
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I actually admire you for it
The planning I mean.
death is inevitable
If it helps you keep going now
Then I guess we should use it
Everyone else does.
Don't die before you've really seen it all
Because you might think you have
then as you're dying you'll remember
Something you always wanted to see
but forgot about.
And that'd distract you
Which would be horrible
Because it's a beautiful way to die
As long as you don't forget anyhting.
Yea. We should hang out more often, skipping advisories and such.
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colin evans is in my advisory
and since he reads psyche books alot
i asked him about these feelings of disattatchment i keep getting
because they're starting to bother me
and i don't feel rooted or connected
i don't feel real
sorry i can't explain it
so colin starts nodding
and i'm getting excited because
maybe he has a cure or something
and then he goes, yeah you have this wicca gift
and some shit like that
so thanks a fucking lot
sorry to rant
i adore you
i'm glad you approve
i'm glad it's not more than 30 years
because 30's a good number for me.
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But I laughed anyways
so feel free to laugh at me
ya know, when it's not funny
You probably do have some sort of deep hidden wicca talent
One day you'll be sitting in class and thinking about something deep and mystical and you'll lay an egg or something.
You only feel dissatached because you don't know what you want yet. That was Hemingway's problem. He lived his whole life and never had any idea what he wanted.
Hell, that's everybody's problem.
Or almost everybody.
But I think you're diffrent, for the most part.
I believe you can find what you want
If I didn't I wouldn't be wasting my time
Talking to you
And skipping advisories
and such.
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if you want i can help you.
ive been through it all.
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like a mirror is a lie
and is playing games with each of our eyes
if i die...which your post made me think of
i would want to die young
in a warm bubble bath filled with rose petals
with my favorite song blasting
i think that would basically complete my life.
in a way i would WANT it to be completed as.
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if you die that way
i think chris carabba
or elliot smith
would be appropriate.
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but when your found dead
they might blame it on his "suicide"
that led to your death.
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But the reflection they show
can't be the same as everyone else sees
I think that people usually see themselves in a more negative light than those around them
just something to think about
other people can plan ahead too, you know.
and other people are just as, if not more (and i use that term lightly...more...in reality it would be far more) eloquent than you could ever be.
so you need to give humanity a little heads-up before it barrels right through you.
what good it is to have all these "deep" thoughts and never express them to the world?
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at first i thought maybe i was one of those philosophical deep types and i was flustered and strangely pleased.
then i realized i'm just wierd.
probably not as much as i think.
i'm really probably exactly the same as everyone else
except for some small iota of my brain
that i will kill with caffine drinking or smoking
and that makes me much more upset
i hate the idea of being the same
not to say i deliberately act different
because even that would be the same
there's someone i know
who mentioned how goth kids all dress in black
so there's no way they are nonconformists
the same thing goes for most people
and i hate it.
i love how you insulted me. thanks. i feel great now. real eloquent. real inspired.
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Anyways!...
i was reading this little strand of conversation, and did you really mean "thanks" for being insulted? Or did anonymous just inspire you or something....or were you being sarcastic?
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