thank you for this
bitter knowledge
guardian angels
who've left me stranded.
--rufus.

spent all day in bed. not sleeping, but seeing ghosts.

.bee.

i had tears in my eyes again last night at pantheon dancing to season's of love, a song dedicated lovingly to the man who passed recently that used to call me madonna because that's how he thought i responded when he asked me my last name so that he could give me back my i.d. one night a long time ago, when i was tender still, and eighteen and was ( Read more... )

i would really enjoy a drink. you know, to take the nerves off of me. i worked all day on my aids paper. my eyes got so blurry from staring at my computer screen for so long ( Read more... )

computer's will be the death of me. there is no other piece of technology that causes me such rage. im sick of savant machinery. it knows more than i do, but can't be reasoned with. im in a fury 'cause this presentation is due in an hour. mmmmm ( Read more... )

people were nuts last night ( Read more... )

lungs fill
and satisfy
me and
all
of my
beautiful friends.

let's play nice. or let's play dead. symptoms lift from time to time. but we're still on. but we're still the ones.

.bee.

i am still so tired from this weekend.
i was up until seven in the morning: a long night of partying on halloween.
i took three sleeping pills to make my jaw stop clenching.
i woke up to my roommates making sure i was breathing.
it was seven at night.
now it's back to reality. the work/school monster that is my life.
i had a lot of fun last

He hit me ( Read more... )

exams are so awful.
beth and i had so much fun yesterday. i heart xanax.
we listened to a lot of bikini kill.
i slept for like fifteen hours last night, it was amazing.
really, a good weekend overall. saw savannah and nick at the upper deck: love them enough to eat them.

now it's time to study.
.bee.

the bangles are so good ( Read more... )