++++++ Seeing Becca ( Read more... )

You know the
Click
Where everything solidifies
Joins together
Makes sense?
You want to break down in tears
Because of the beauty;
Your heart swells and feels like bursting.
It is clear enough to see all the fibres
And how they all work together.
You know that?
Tonight in a room with holiday music and laughter
I clickedAmidst the laughter and ( Read more... )

I deserve strength. I deserve honesty. I deserve to be pampered.

I have a hard time accepting things. I always want to give and help and give and help.

I have never been good at asking for things as spoiled as I seem/am.

I don't really understand it.

I deserve more. I do.

There I said it.

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Here they go
Messing with my mind again
Fuck those societal standards
Don’t tell me who to be
Don’t tell me what to want or what to need.
Damn, she is gorgeous.
I miss the flesh on flesh soft touching warm under blankets fogged up windows goose bumps pleasure pain rough hard fast heavy laughter never too serious.
Damn, he looks fine.Here I go with ( Read more... )

Really excited to go hiking on Monday with Marcus and for everyone coming over Tuesday.

Living in the moment never felt so good.

I just did a reading for myself. It was one of those freakishly right ones ( Read more... )

Fiona is settling in, she is out of the crate now and is letting me pet her most of the time though she still can be very shy. However, five minutes ago she jumped on my bed and wanted to be patted, whereas yesterday she had no interest in me.

Crazy kittens.

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So I agonoized over what to wear to distract myself because Marcus- the cool outdoorsy kid from micro- was going to come caroling with whoever else comes tonight and he has a paper to finish so he can't come.

Now I really am a dork.

What awful, awful timing. But isn't everything... One week to our 2 year...

... in need of hugs and a someone to cuddle.