Is Chrissy with you now, like you said she would be? I hope so - you know how I worry, darling. I would be there if I could, but I had to get back to filming, and so I am in London now.
I am supposed to be meeting with Sean and Emma and Beckham and Rose tonight - at the Dorchester, I think - hope that goes well. I don't expect to be speaking to Rose, as we exchanged a few words yesterday, and I promised Emma that I would play nice tonight.
Give me a call when you can, sweetie, and take care. I'll keep you posted on anything new on this front - especially regarding the big family dinner with Renee's family and mine tomorrow night!
Dear Drew, I don't know what to say. I know words aren't gonna make things better between us, but I also know you won't pick up the fucking phone when I call. I'm losing everything in my life - my kid, my money, my self-respect, my best friend... but I deserve that. Drew, baby, I never should have hurt you. I know that. Believe me when I say it'll never happen again. Ever. I won't let it. God, I hate this. I need to talk to you. Even if it's just as friends. We can't lose what we have. Love, Courtney
Courtney... *sighs and bites her lip* I need time, please. I..I'll do my best to try to get to a place where hearing your voice doesn't terrify me. And you know why that is. And, I'd like to believe you, but it's hard to do that after what we went though. Just...give me some time. You know that I've always loved you, and that isn't something that just disappears. Ok?
Yeah, I get it. As much as I hate it, I get it. But I can't guarantee that I won't try to talk to you before you're ready. I'll try, but you know how I am. *laughs bitterly* My way, or no way.
I'm trying to change, but everyone just wants me to be Queen Courtney of Bitchland, and it's not so hard when I feel like I'm losing everything.
I seem to be putting this together in pieces, between your comment, your post and Sean's. There was no reason for that, really. Definitely not on my part. I don't care what she says about me. I hope you're doing better. And had you asked I would have told you to avoid a fight with her. She fights worse than a guy. *sighs and smiles* Boy, you and I have been having fun, haven't we? Call me.
I am doing better - I'm sure I'll live. *chuckles*
The fight actually started because Sean and I thought that she and Beckham were.... well, that they were a threat ...... to Emma and Sean....
I know I'm not explaining this right, but I'm having trouble thinking straight, love. And I did not choose to fight with her. It just happened. You know that I would never hit a woman. Never. And right now I am sorry that I let myself get as out of control as I did - there's no real excuse me that.
I'll call you when I can - right now Renee's parents are visiting from Texas, and we have our hands full.
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Is Chrissy with you now, like you said she would be? I hope so - you know how I worry, darling. I would be there if I could, but I had to get back to filming, and so I am in London now.
I am supposed to be meeting with Sean and Emma and Beckham and Rose tonight - at the Dorchester, I think - hope that goes well. I don't expect to be speaking to Rose, as we exchanged a few words yesterday, and I promised Emma that I would play nice tonight.
Give me a call when you can, sweetie, and take care. I'll keep you posted on anything new on this front - especially regarding the big family dinner with Renee's family and mine tomorrow night!
Love you,
Uncle Gary
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I don't know what to say. I know words aren't gonna make things better between us, but I also know you won't pick up the fucking phone when I call.
I'm losing everything in my life - my kid, my money, my self-respect, my best friend... but I deserve that.
Drew, baby, I never should have hurt you. I know that. Believe me when I say it'll never happen again. Ever. I won't let it.
God, I hate this. I need to talk to you. Even if it's just as friends. We can't lose what we have.
Love, Courtney
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*sighs and bites her lip*
I need time, please. I..I'll do my best to try to get to a place where hearing your voice doesn't terrify me. And you know why that is. And, I'd like to believe you, but it's hard to do that after what we went though. Just...give me some time. You know that I've always loved you, and that isn't something that just disappears. Ok?
~Drew
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But I can't guarantee that I won't try to talk to you before you're ready. I'll try, but you know how I am. *laughs bitterly* My way, or no way.
I'm trying to change, but everyone just wants me to be Queen Courtney of Bitchland, and it's not so hard when I feel like I'm losing everything.
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Give your poor old uncle a call when you get a chance...
I'm afraid that I had a run-in with a certain Rose - and I did not come out well on this one.
Your loving uncle Gary
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I am doing better - I'm sure I'll live. *chuckles*
The fight actually started because Sean and I thought that she and Beckham were.... well, that they were a threat ...... to Emma and Sean....
I know I'm not explaining this right, but I'm having trouble thinking straight, love. And I did not choose to fight with her. It just happened. You know that I would never hit a woman. Never. And right now I am sorry that I let myself get as out of control as I did - there's no real excuse me that.
I'll call you when I can - right now Renee's parents are visiting from Texas, and we have our hands full.
Love you,
Uncle Gary
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Just wanted to give you a heads up - if you need me, use my cell - don't call the house. Or call Bean's place - that's where you'll find me.
Talk to you later.
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