I need...a fresh start away from this city and this area. I'm just so sick of it.

I feel like I am in some sort of artistic or emotional rut. I used to draw etc every day, yet I have not even thought about drawing in weeks now. Strange. I feel no artistic urges whatsoever, and I have no idea why. My life feels like it is in a rut. I can't remember the last time I had fun and not felt bad about it in one way or another ( Read more... )

God, I hope some day SOON you take a look in the fucking mirror and see what you have become. It sickens me more than it makes me sad. And you don't even realize it one bit.

Who am I kidding? You love what you have become.

So. My dad calls me at 10:30am, woke me up. "I'm in Denver. My company had an emergency and they are making me come back today. I'm in Denver, I need you to pick me up in 2 hours ( Read more... )

I FEEL LIKE SHIT. Going on four hours of sleep in three days. I can't keep my head up anymore. My stomach is tearing itself apart. All I have eaten is a cup of noodles I forced upon myself yesterday. I am so hung over and am not recovering because I refuse to stop until my dad gets back from Russia.

Tonight, more drinking is in order!

You are going to hate me for being happy about this. But I am. So let me be.

:)

Man, we were all so drunk last night. My dad spent the night at his girlfriends. We drank... so much alcohol.. I didn't think it was possible. Dad leaves in 3 1/2 days. Can't wait can't wait can't wait. I had my first actual hangover today, I think. I threw up 3 times. I don't like it. I need to start drinking water when I drink, I never had to ( Read more... )

Yay mohawks. Sorry if this doesn't look right on your screen, but it does on mine so I don't care.

My moms boyfriend is cooking dinner for us tomorrow. Can't wait :) I am staaaaaarving. I want... taco bell... mmm that sounds oh so delicious. If I had money I would go.

Countdown till Dad leaves: 7 DAYS

Is it weird that I have over a thousand songs in my iTunes library, yet I can't find a single one I would like to listen to at the moment? I'm so sick of everything I've heard, I'm so sick of everyone around me, I'm so sick of life right now. I need change. I can't wait for school ( Read more... )

I don't believe in horoscopes but today, mine is scarily dead-on... and it is telling me not to say mean things about people because it will affect them a lot. So I won't say what I was about to write. But I wish you knew.