The Christmas party at the hotel last night was a big success. I was glad that Connor was cool with Taylor and me going without him. It's not that I don't want Connor to spend time with Angel, but he wasn't real comfortable around Angel when there was only a few people around. I couldn't imagine he'd be cool around all those strangers ( Read more... )

I spent the weekend shopping and wrapping presents for the family and for the kids that we're throwing the party for. It didn't take long to lose myself in the spirit of the holiday, especially when Taylor, Connor and I stopped at some of the shelters I used to stay at when I lived on the streets, and dropped off boxes of food and clothes. There ( Read more... )

Bael is dead. Connor and Rhia took him out last night with almost no problem. Rhia was injured slightly, but she said it was nothing more than a flesh wound. I'd had some time to think while they were out fighting Bael and Oz and Captain Holtz were watching over Tara and Willow...I figured out what I could do to snap myself out of this depression ( Read more... )

I feel like the last week has been some bad dream, but I know it's just another adventure in dealing with demons who use Connor's family to get at him. This time it was Bael and he chose to attack in all directions and we never saw him coming until it was too late to do anything but fight back defensively. Just once, I wish we'd have enough warning ( Read more... )

I need sleep. Nothing I try has helped. Sleeping pills, working myself until I'm ready to collapse in exhaustion, hot baths, warm milk, dark rooms that are ice cold with lots of blankets and no noise, having Connor just hold me...nothing is working. I feel like I'm crawling out of my skin. Everything is getting to me ( Read more... )

This is not the time for my insomnia to kick in. I've been so busy with school, work, Taylor and stuff that I didn't even realize It's been days since I last slept. Taylor told me I had dark circles under my eyes and last night, Connor expressed concern that I haven't been resting. I tried to sleep last night, while Connor was on patrol, but I ( Read more... )

Today is Gia's birthday. I can't believe she's seventeen. Maybe I'm just having one of those sappy days, because today was Taylor's first day of school too. I got up really early so I could make breakfast for us and he wanted to buy his lunch...I hope school food has changed since I was in school. If not? He'll be asking me to make his lunch by ( Read more... )

Taylor wants to go to school. He talked to Connor and me about it the other night and Connor thought it was a good idea. It's funny how much things change over a few months. There was a time when it would have been Connor being the relunctant one to send Taylor to school, but I gave in and registered him at the Catholic school near the house. ( Read more... )

So much for getting my Christmas shopping done this weekend. Managed to get to one store before Connor and I ended up in a fight in the middle of the mall. We don't usually fight, especially not about something as trivial as Christmas shopping. The thing is, he hurt my feelings and that really shocked me. I'm not used to being disappointed or hurt ( Read more... )

I'm starting to think Connor dreads Christmas. When I mentioned earlier in the week that we should go and get our Christmas tree on Saturday, he got this sullen look on his face and asked if it would require him using one of his axes like last year. Like he doesn't have a ton of weapons? I know the tree sap sucks, but it's Christmas and I don't do ( Read more... )