So, we had our date on Tuesday. It's funny, having seen her several times now, it was our first "Official Date"(tm). It was awesome of course! We went to Macaroni Grill. I looked like ass of course, Heh. She looked amazing. She had on a black and white dress. It was beautiful! I drew her some flowers instead of bringing some. I thought about ( Read more... )

The last 48 hours have been... more than I ever wanted them to be. And I don't say that with any level of... appreciation. It's 4:30am Monday morning and I've lost the last 2 days of my life. I've undergone things that are incomprehensible to me. I've been losing sleep more and more every day over the last few weeks. I'd decided to focus on ( Read more... )

It's interesting what you are dealt sometimes. And like a game of cards, I think it's important to remember that even though this hand may look like shit, not only can you turn it around, but you will also get dealt a new hand when this one is done. I had a new hand dealt to me this week. And it's looking good, but I still have to play the hand ( Read more... )

I feel a bit like Sylvester McCoy, the Seventh Doctor, from the fabled series "Doctor Who". In all fairness, there was something dark about him.. He was the first of the Doctors to have a dark personality, and to this day, strikes me as somewhat unnerving. Anyhow, the point being, there was this dark introspection. And that's where I'm at right ( Read more... )

"So after all these one night stands ( Read more... )

"He was standing all alone
Trying to find the words to say
When every prayer he ever prayed was gone
And the dreams he's never owned
Are still safely tucked away
Until tomorrow he just carries on
Carries on
Carries on
Carries on"It's funny how much life imitates art. It's funny how I was walking around with optimism 6 months ago. It's funny how ( Read more... )

from my MDA.

Deeply troubled.

The endless screaming in my head.

The constant sound of drowning in my ears.

The depth of betrayal in my heart.

The beginning of the end, or the end of the beginning.

My wheels spinning.

This is the end of the line.

Not one more time.

The strength in me wanes

No blood left to flow through these veins.

Your need has sucked me dry

I don’t ( Read more... )

Now that I've come to see ( Read more... )

So, here’s my deal.  I recently posted about an ebb and flow.  True enough.  In that post, I also pointed out that I wished at least 1 person was equally interested in me, as I was her.  I stated that I felt certain friends had forgotten about me.  How I want to camp.  How I wasn’t so excited about ‘fest this year.  Well...  things change.

I think ( Read more... )