125: im so fucking confusing.
im holding back words.
& im fighting back tears.
but just like every other time... i cant tell myself why.
i just dont have a clue.
ok im lying. i pretty much know why... but i have no fucking clue how to fix it.
ok im lying again. sleep fixes it... but then the shittiest thing happens... & i get too much sleep...
&& then i get sick.
&&& then im more miserable.
so no, i guess sleep doesn't fix it.
& i guess i was lying yet again.
One day I'll fly away.
Leave all this to yesterday.
Why live life from dream to dream?
And dread the day when dreaming ends...
& im fighting back tears.
but just like every other time... i cant tell myself why.
i just dont have a clue.
ok im lying. i pretty much know why... but i have no fucking clue how to fix it.
ok im lying again. sleep fixes it... but then the shittiest thing happens... & i get too much sleep...
&& then i get sick.
&&& then im more miserable.
so no, i guess sleep doesn't fix it.
& i guess i was lying yet again.
One day I'll fly away.
Leave all this to yesterday.
Why live life from dream to dream?
And dread the day when dreaming ends...